Second pregnancy

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I'm pregnant with my second. My first is only 8 and a half months and I'm 9 weeks along. I feel sad but I don't want this baby. My first is pretty demanding as all first babies are. We don't get any help. Our parents refuse and only see her once every 2 weeks. My mum is 3 mins away and mil is 20 mins away. We aren't financially ready for a second. Btw I know I wio

I'm worried we are not going to be able to afford this. My partner is living on another planet saying it's fine. We don't need money. We do and he's taking about a job where he's gone for a year and leaving me with 2 kids. My question is how do you organise yourself with a high needs child and a new baby. Sorry for rambling. Cause I'm on own even emotionally what do i do. I feel like I don't want this baby. But it's not fair to feel that way

I have no advise, but can understand how hard this must be for you.
May be if you meditate on your difficult emotions the right decision will come to you.