Hi all,
I’ve only got a few weeks left until my due date. I’ve been on maternity leave for a couple weeks and for the first week of it was really productive and settled, ticking away at my to do list.
As the weeks have gone I’ve felt myself becoming bored and a loss at what to do and have started to feel very lonely. To the point where when my mum comes home from work at the end of the day I cry because I actually have someone to speak to lol.
This pregnancy has been hard in a personal perspective as baby’s dad decided he didn’t want to be involved and moved away.... (a good 4-5 hours away too) but as the due date has got closer he’s got back in touch and wants some involvement. I find it very difficult to keep my cool with him as after everything he’s put me through with things that have happened behind closed doors whilst I’ve been pregnant he just expects me to be magically ok with him. He texts me asking how I am and I just reply with a fine thanks, even when I’m not because the trust has gone and I don’t feel like I can open up to him anymore.
I know as soon as I meet this baby that it will all be ok but these last weeks of hormones are driving me mad 😔
I’m just feeling abit down in the dumps and needed the rant really... I know I’m not ever alone with my baby kicking away in my belly and that brings me comfort.