So this is my second. First baby was the easiest pregnancy and super fast delivery on her due date.lucky me. After a large gap Im expecting the little boy I always wanted. Great. Except Im having a horrible time of it now. I am 41 weeks and 5 days. I started getting my first labour like pains at 37 weeks,had show, started dilating etc. A month later im still getting 6/7 strong contractions before stopping again twice a day. Ive had 3 sweeps we make me sore and bleed and I just wish I had opted for an elective c-section at 39 weeks(my friend does this) as I would be well on my way to feeling normal by now. I hate being pregnant with a passion, Im told I should count my blessings as I have low blood pressure, no pelvic floor issues, veins, pains etc but I feel gross and walk like a duck so I refuse to go out in public for weeks now as I feel people staring at me and cant stand it. As for my family and friends bugging me with calls asking the same stupid questions I have actually stopped answering the phone. I miss my partner so terribly when hes at work, im so incredibly lonely. And my older child is a teenager so we dont discuss anything except her need for money and I obviously cant let her see me upset so Im avoiding her as much as I can. Also, I really dont want to breastfeed now,the idea makes me feel ill because after the birth I just want to rest and take painkillers and let my partner do everything because I need to begin to feel like me again. I have cleaned, repainted and organized everything in my home to ridiculous levels and done it again and again. Im so bored of this that once baby is out I feel like leaving them to it and taking myself away on holiday. Until a few weeks ago I was so happy and looking forward to baby and spent hours each day bonding with my bump and dreamily imagining those early weeks I cant even picture us together now. Whats happened ? could the stop start labour be connected to this as Oxytocin seems non-exsistent in my physiology at the moment