@JessieMillz25 - I suffer from depression and anxiety, and have done for many years - long before I had my children. However, it wasn't diagnosed until much later, after I had had all three of them.
I can well remember the anxieties of pregnancy - I was told at the time that it was very normal to be anxious, and that is probably true, especially the first time round as you have no idea what to expect, and what is and isn't normal. However, if someone already suffers from mental health issues, as you and I do, these worries can become much bigger - so I can absolutely sympathise and empathise with how you are feeling.
I am glad that you are getting support from your healthcare professionals, and I hope you manage to get a good rest over half term. I hope that you can find support on here too - Mumsnet is a wonderful place when you need advice and help, in my experience.
I think it is also good that you are able to express your fears and anxieties, both here and in real life to your mental health team. Taking these fears out of your head and examining them in the clear light of day can help to cut them down to size and make you see them for what they are - fears, not realities.
I worried through each of my pregnancies, including right up to the point of birth, in the case of ds3, but none of my anxieties became realities, and I have three strapping, healthy lads - two at university and one who has graduated and is in actual paid employment.
I worried a lot during their childhoods - hell, I still worry about them even though I know they are old enough to look after themselves, and are reasonably sensible (within a fairly broad definition of sensible, admittedly). You don't stop worrying about them, but as time goes by, you see your worries don't come true, and that helps.
I hope you can enjoy the rest of your pregnancy more, and look forward to the arrival of your lovely baby.
{{{hugs}}}