Hi there Jessie.
We're so sorry to hear you're having such a time of it. Pregnancy can be an extremely anxious time for anyone but if you throw any additional worries into the mix, it's horrendous.
Firstly, at 29 weeks, you really should only just be beginning to spot 'patterns' so please don't fret. We've more information on all that here on our page on monitoring your baby's movements. If that's just going to make you more worried, please do skip it, but it's a good basic indicator of when to worry and when not to.
The thing to remember is that doctors and midwives are never sorry to see a worried mum-to-be come through their door. If there's nothing wrong (and the Royal College of Obstetricians and Gynaecologists say that in 70% of pregnancies with a single case of reduced foetal movement, there are no complications), they are ALWAYS just pleased to be able to reassure you and send you on your way.
Although it's always a good idea to be aware of your baby's movements, it does sound as though this fear is rather taking over and spoiling your enjoyment of what should be a happy time. We're pleased to see you've already had support on this thread but if the feelings you're experiencing are making you feel suicidal we would urge you to seek real life support as soon as possible, so professionals can listen to your worries and help you get back on track.
There are a few contact numbers for organisations that specialise in helping women with mental health concerns during pregnancy here. They're definitely worth contacting if you can't get an appointment immediately.
We really hope you can get the support and help you need and start to enjoy what is undeniably scary but should also be a joyful time. You've a right to be happy now, so we really hope you find the help you need to get there. Congratulations on your pregnancy and please do pop back and let us know how you get on.