One hot mess

[Heisenburger]

Where to begin . . .

Married and I had an affair with a married man. Push came to shove and he didn't leave his wife (I separated from my husband when things got serious). I got pregnant.

His wife found out about us and the baby.

Anway

a month later.

He wants to be 'my friend'

I still love him.

He doesn't want anything to do with the baby.

I feel totally stuck.

What a difficult situation for you.

You know you cannot make him do or feel anything that's not there.
I suppose him engaging in an affair while still married gave you some indication about his character.

Many women manage their lives as single mothers and you will to.
It's not what you would have chosen, but it is the situation you're in.
I think you'd best make plans on how to manage this on your own.