Really hate this pregnancy

[ThePrisonerOfAzkaban]

So sick of it all, I just want it all to go away now.
So far I've had
2 threatened miscarriages
5 week long stays in hospital for hypermesis
Sever itching thinking that it maybe to do with my liver function
issues with work ie bulling and lack of health and safety
have to sell my beloved horse

and now too top it all off I keep on passing myself, so far 4 times this evening and I don't even have to move, it's not a little bit either.

So fed up of it all

Eugh poor you

How many weeks are you now ?

How far along are you?
Pregnancy can be bloody awful, hang on in there

20 weeks, so only bloody half way through

Ok, so from 20 weeks you can start to feel better, it may just be round the corner.

Sorry you've had such a rough time.

With the pelvic floor, you can try doing exercises now, possibly won't make a huge difference though.

What's happening at work?

Share/loan your horse?

Is this your first baby?
Pregnancy can be a bitch but the end result is worth it, promise!
It does seem like it lasts for ever but it will pass.

Can you not look into sharing/loaning your horse.

Pelvic floor : look up exercises to try and help and when your at next midwife appt mention it.

gosh, thats quite an extreme post there OP, are you ok? It is bloody hard being pregnant, i was awfully sick for the first five months or so, ALL bloody day - horrible, then it got much much better. My friend hated being pregnant so much she looked into adoption for her second child, then fate intervened!

Seriously though - if your post isn't just a bit of an exaggerated frustrated rant i would consider seeing your GP as you could be suffering from anti-natal depression and could be at risk for PND.

A friend of mine couldn't cope with her horse (nothing to do with pregnancy, just a naughty horse) but she couldn't bear to part with her, she put her on loan and it worked out really well, could you do this? I know how expensive horses are but if it were full loan the other party would be responsible for all the costs??

Don't sell the horse! You'll end up resenting the poor baby forever and be miserable yourself. Find a full loaner or a sharer to contribute to costs and do the chores/riding while you can't. After baby comes, you'll be able to ride, but not needing to do every day will be a real boon. Find someone good now, and if necessary move to grass livery/cheaper DIY. Don't sell! I kept mine and she is my sanity still.

If it helps I misread horse as house- not sure but presume that would be worse!!

I go to bed every night telling dh I can't do this anymore- 29 weeks- and every morning things seem more manageable.

Pregnancy is tough- support is vital keep going xxx

I felt the same with ds. Threatened mc, hyperemesis, spd, pre eclampsia, name it and I had it!
He is nearly 1 now and the best thing I ever did. So much so I'm expecting again! Stick in there, it gets better

Sympathies op. I felt the same about two out of three of my pregnancies. I viewed the growing baby as a parasite taking everything from my body. I had Hyperemesis (improved from 20 weeks with one pg, went all the way through with the other) which was truly the most horrific thing to live with.
Make sure you keep seeing your GP, they might offer different treatment as you go on.
I had lovely births which was a relief after the shit pregnancies, and i felt instantly better as soon as they were born. I bonded with the babies fine despite my extremely negative feelings in pregnancy.
Btw, I had one totally trouble free pregnancy I between my HG pregnancies so your experience won't necessarily be repeated if you ever decide to do it again.

I have had two rough pregnancies with physical symptoms plus severe ante natal depression and anxiety. As pp have said, the symptoms disappeared straight after giving birth. It will get better.

You don't hate the baby, you hate the pregnancy and it sounds like you have had a rough ride.

Get yourself to your midwife- you don't sound like you are coping fully and the wetting yourself issue is not something that is expected. Same about the severe itching, especially about the severe itching.

The stress at work is not helping and agree with the others saying about finding someone to horse-share, perhaps a youngster who rides but doesn't have the facilities to own their own?

Stand up foryourself with your work. I was the only female in my old place with 60+ blokes. I did and they respected me for it and never tryed it again! Still had the old smarmy comments but i just laughed in their faces wich annoyed them further :p

I'm having a crepe paper time of it all I sailed through first time but this time is hoorid I had to give up my old life when I had ds1 and at the beginning kept refering and comparing my lifes but it was what I had chosen, my mum had anti natal depression and a very straight talking dr said well we can do a abortion today or set in place adoption and she knew there and then what she wanted hence I am writing this!

Hope your feeling better/more positive today op x

I completely understand the whole pregnancy being so so hard! ive been there and a pregnancy with twins waa just horrific.

but I really think its harsh you saying that on your title! at the end of the day this baby is your baby, I don't think I have ever come across anyone that have enjoyed pregnancy and like I said I can sympathise .. but your title made me feel really sad and think maybe you should consult your midwife on how you are feeling as helpful posters above gave said it could be a form of depression.

Pregnancy is hard, but I do not agree with you saying you hate "this" baby that's an awful thing to say some people are desperate to be in your position and some of us are just grateful for a healthy baby.

I don't know how to say this without scaring you but the pissing yourself. It might - but very highly unlikely- be your waters.

I thought mine were leaking, (but alas, I was just pissing myself!) I phoned the midwife and she told me to lay on a particular side -can't remebr which. For a certain amount of time - cant remember how long! Then stand up. If you have a big gush of water then you need to go and get checked out.

Like I said, not trying to scare you unnecessarily. Just concerned.

You hate the baby or the pregnancy? There's a significant difference. It's very worrying if you hate the baby, and could be a sign of anti natal depression. Please see your gp or midwife.

I think you should ask for your title to be amended, it's quite insensitive. Pregnancy can be hard I had hg and other problems but saying you hate the baby is not fair.