Just that really.
Got a bfp yesterday (and again this morn to be sure), due 9th July, and although it was planned I'm so much more nervous that the first time round. It's probably because last time although I was pretty well informed I was still blissfully ignorant quite how hard work babies are! The worry, the sleep deprivation, the guilt, the helplessness.
And that's not to mention the solemn vow I made to myself about an hr post natal to never put myself through that again. DD's birth was straightforward, but quick and I think I was literally in shock for a few days. And unlike the pain of a drug-free (not be choice at the time) labour, the pain of peeing on unstitched labial sodding great tears "grazes" which healed 'funny' then reopened at 10 days has not left me...
I worry about the birth, about it being quicker this time and my DH being here, about how my DD will cope, about how I will cope, that the car's too small, that the house is too small... the list is endless.
Share your list of worries with me, and what it was that made a second child seem like a good idea!
xx