PG after MC, the new and shiny POSIFRICKINTIVITY thread...

[SaggyOldClothCatPuss]

Oops! I posted the last post and didn't link to a new thread! Sorry!
Anyway, here it is, come on in for the best support going and a safe place to vent. and a lovely squishy new set of twins

Martha - sounds like implantation blood clearing out, I had the same at 5-6 weeks. Probably tMI but I find I get a hell of a lot more discharge every day when pg, I'm 25 weeks and up to now using 2-3 pant liners a day (very lucky we get them free in the loos at work)

Definitely look out for maternity stuff on eBay. Isabella Oliver stuff sells really well on there even if third hand

Good luck for tomorrow Kat. With my MMC I'd felt very paranoid for no reason the whole pregnancy (hadn't been like that with DS) thinking things were going to go wrong. Obviously turned out at 12 week scan that I had been right, so I'm a big believer generally in trusting your intuition. HOWEVER this pregnancy I'm conscious of the fact that I now have a reason to be scared of things going wrong because of last time. So I am trying to think logically - I was scared by the memory of what happened last time, not by what I honestly thought would happen this time. I genuinely think your brain is just rehashing the memory of your MMC and that you have nothing to worry about.

just a quickie as am on phone so sorry for lack of namecheck.

thank you all for your reassurance, the 'stuff' has gone now so i feel a lot happier

kat FX for tomorrow, please tty not to read anything into your dream. Easier said than done i know but i am rooting for you

Kat hope all goes well tomorrow. I know it is sooo hard to stay calm in the run up, I totally lost it whilst waiting for my first scan this time. Will be thinking of you.

Just had a look at the maternity clothes on ebay - surprised at how much some labels go for!! Almost worth investing in some of the big names and then selling on afterwards. I'm trying to be good though and just add a couple of items to last time - going for dresses with long sleeved tops underneath and leggings and will buy a couple of big cardies to throw over I think. I found jeans quite uncomfy last time whereas leggings were lovely. H&M is brilliant for stretchy top and leggings basics and New Look had some cute dresses last time - although you have to be selective. Just seen I've lost out by pennies on a really cute ASOS tea dress. Gah!!! Probably shouldn't buy anything til I actually need it though.

Anyone bought ASOS maternity wear before? are the sizes on the small side or ok?

Try not to fret about your scan kat, I know it's easy for me to say already worrying about mine in 59 days but I'm sure all will be well. I'm not surprised you're having stressy dreams. Remember we've all been through a lot, lets be kind to ourselves and restore a little faith back in our bodies to work as they should. I know I've been trying to forgive myself since the start of May.
I also spent 8 weeks last time rock totally convinced there was something very wrong and was proved right. I haven't got those doubts this time, feels v different but like you I have to keep silencing the doubting voices that pop into my head.

It is impossible to worry especially with our history but here's hoping you get through the next 24 hours ok Kat. Thinking of you and hoping that everything goes well tomorrow. Today you are pregnant and tomorrow you get some peace of mind! Hope you can hold on to that. xxx

Woohoo! Today I can eat! I had a bacon roll for breakfast and m just about to tuck into tomato soup and a roll! Hooray for the second trimester!

No symptoms today. Sicky feeling all gone. Boobs not sore. Feeling utterest doom. Was going to try to hold out til after 8 weeks to beg for early scan (just 7 weeks now), but think I might go and plead at my GP. But then, it'll take so long to get to see my GP that it might be nearer then anyway. Arg, arg, arg.

(Sorry for self pitying mememe post, all. It's the fear of it all happening again).

Tea that was me yesterday - no sickness, no sore boobs and didn't even feel that tired. DH and I went for a picnic and happily munched my way through everything without wanting to throw up once. Was convinced it had all gone pear-shaped. But as of 10 minutes ago it is all back with a vengeance...so hang in there! But I would def try and beg for an early scan if you are worried. My local EPU wouldn't do one for me unless I had bleeding or some kind of worrying symptom so we booked a private scan one next Sat. I have no idea how I am going to get through the week, but just the thought that I will know one way or another in six days is some comfort.

Saggy yay for a bacon sandwich! I just ate a few mouthfuls of a roast and sacrificed the rest to the fridge - it sounded like a good idea this morning but it so didn't go down well at all! xxx

Hi khj, I just feel like I'm being such a total fanny 90% of the time. I'm normally only standard level batso, but these days I'm a whimpering wreck of a worrywart. I need a good poke in the eye!

Don't worry Tea I'm with you on that one. I am practically hiding out at home - don't want to go anywhere or see anyone until I know for sure that this one is going to stick. And am prone to crying fits every now and then. Poor DH has no idea whether he is coming or going although he is doing remarkably well at dealing with a hormonal and hysterical woman - who may or may not have thrown a pot at him this morning because he hasn't ever cleaned the oven in the entire existence of our relationship. I too feel batshit crazy - I seriously hope this is the worst bit of the pregnancy because I am not enjoying the uncertainty one bit!

Excellent news that I am not the only 'batshit crazy' woman here today! Today we are batshit crazy pregnant women! Hear us roar!

can I join the batshit crazy women club too?
Feel like I'm living a double life at the moment. We're not telling anyone until at least the first scan, not even parents. So spending the day housebound through MS is particularly dull. Feel like I'm going slightly mad - either feel nauseous, or full and bloated the entire time. Never feel like eating, but if I don't, I just feel even worse. I really like to cook and this has just roved any interest in that. Not sure at all how I'm going to make it through this week at work. I'm so useless before 12 at the moment.

katatonic fx for your scan tomorrow. I'm sure your dreams are just stress dreams, so don't read anything into them. Hope you can find something distracting to do this evening. I'll be checking in for the good news tomorrow.

I think we are ALL batshit crazy to put ourselves through this!
Although I am riding a wave of posifrickintivity at the moment. I was forcing it a bit, because deep down I have scan doom for my 12 weeker on the ninth, but its been a nice few days. I worked on my favourite market yesterday and told my mad friend about the baby! She went mad and told everyone else! I almost felt like a 'normal' pregnant person!
Then today I've been working at a country park. It was full of families and I spent the entire day sneakily peeking in prams and waving at toddlers! I kept thinking "that will be me soon"! Add that to a decent meal and I'm really riding high.
Lets hope that tomorrow doesn't rain on my parade!

Pixie - I've found Asos to be pretty true to size - so if you were a 12 before, get a 12. But I've been pretty disappointed in the fabric quality when it's all arrived. Stuff that looks nice in the pictures is pretty mingling in RL. Obviously polyester (which when you have your internal heater going full blast is super nice) and funny cuts that you don't see in the pictures

Trouble is the lack of choice out there - makes me stick to eBay as at least you get some more options. However I have a few purchases which need to be re-sold as too small/large

Took DS to a birthday party this afternoon, he should therefore be knackered but is still charging about watching Ben and holly while I mn
I seem to be waking up tired these days. Need to get him to bed, but seriously struggling to get up!
Full week of work this week and starting to stress about getting everything done before I go off on ML, which is pretty silly, but tiredness is freaking me out at the moment!

Good luck tomorrow Kat - I have stress dreams at times and they are so horrid.

I have had a stressy day today, after my post this morning saying 'lalala i am feeling soooo much better' me, DH and DS went to a local National Trust home for a wander in the woods, i went to the loo and bam - there it was - pinky/red spotting mixed with CM (TMI), i cannot tell you how many times i have been to the loo today, it was pretty much a constant and definitely 'there' early afternoon but seems to have gone now, when we got home DH insisted i park myself on the sofa all afternoon with a i did an IC and there were two strong glaring red lines so i feel slightly calmer i just want the next few weeks over and the knicker checking to stop

Anyway - good to see some other batshit crazy ladies (of which i am one) but also some posifrickintivity from others. The good news is that today i am still pregnant and i REALLY need to calm down...

Yes lets talk about clothes, that always cheers me up. pixie when i was PG with DS i bought an ASOS dress which was true to size, the quality was ok as it was a cotton lycra thing, however the dress i bought when i was pregnant with Baby J last year was - to all intents and purposes - shite quality. So i agree with chocolate that it is probably worth avoiding and spending a little more if you can (although H&M have always served me well and their stuff is decent quality).

Speaking of which chocolate i completely misread your post and thought it said 'Obviously polyester (which when you have your internal heater going full blast is super nice) and fanny cuts that you don't see in the pictures'

Thanks chocolate it's an ebay ASOS dress - I've not bought from them before so wasn't sure. I am funny about fabrics though so might not bid.

Saggy what do you do? Your job sounds lovely getting to go to all those different places. Yay for posifrickingtivity :)

Feeling the work fear like a few others today. My hours go up this week so I've got an extra day and then I'm looking after an extra 2 yo on my day off so feel like it's going to be a loooong week. The tiredness hasn't lifted yet... was hoping for a 2nd trimester energy surge as in first pregnancy I felt amazing from about this point through to 28wks when my pelvis collapsed but wondering whether having a toddler means that marvellous burst of energy is automatically discounted

Ah thanks martha I will steer clear of ASOS and look for other ebay bargains :) I'm sorry to hear about the spotting :( can you speak to your midwife tomorrow? I really hope it settles for you soon. I think sitting on the sofa with tea is absolutely the best way forward (and maybe some chocolate too? you know, for the lovely calming happy endorphins :) )

I'm a market trader. Pies and cheese. It's nice sometimes, its bloody awful sometimes! The heat has been shite and there's quite a bit of lifting involved. I'm spreading all heavy stuff across lots of boxes and carrying everything on my hips. I used to use my big fat belly to heft crates of cheese around. I did it by mistake yesterday! Ouch!
Thankfully I have a lovely boss who is bending over backwards to look after me, which is great!

That's good you have a lovely boss - must be hard lifting and being on your feet all day. I would love to have a change of scenery through the week though, the same 4 office walls and faces get pretty dull!

You lot are messing with my head - saggy i now have an image of your boss quite literally bending over backwards and carrying cheese on his belly whilst doing the crab i-really need to work on my imagination

Thanks pixie but it is too soon to call a midwife as i am still only 4+4. I am going to ride it out, as it has stopped for now, and see where we go. I have already made my MW booking in appointment for two weeks time, only because i know they get booked up really quickly. The receptionist did do a giggle when she booked me in for Friday 13th - i said that didnt bode well but she said to keep my fingers crossed and find a black cat and i will be fine!

Sorry for all the worrying times, got my finders crossed for everyone.

Martha my next scan is on Friday 13th as well, but I reckoned it would be better as maybe not as many appointments that day cos people would change, so might get more time :) also 2 of my best friends had lively babies in fri 13th's so I think it's secretly lucky :)

I sent back a few asos dresses, I thought they'd be like tunic dresses to wear with leggings but they were mahoosive swing dresses, maybe better suited for weeks 36+. Most of my stuff has been from new look or h&m, h&m even have some good non maternity cotton dresses that I wear with an under boob tie belt and leggings.

Pah Monday again tomorrow boo BUT trying to look at it as one day closer to baby arriving