Pregnant after anorexia - scared about weight gain!

[FredFlintstonesSister]

I had a very serious eating disorder from ages 19 to 25 and eventually spent 9 months in hospital gaining weight. I thought I was over it and that my weight was reasonably normal until I came off the pill a year ago and my period didn't start. My DH and I really want a baby so I made a huge effort to gain over a stone and am now pregnant.

I absolutely thought I was over the ED by this point. I am now 12 weeks pregnant and the realisation has just hit that not only will I gain weight during pregnancy, something I am resigned to, but I will NEVER LOOK THE SAME AGAIN! Please tell me how stupid I am being. I really want a healthy pregnancy but feel myself becoming hyper critical of myself every time I eat.

Eccentrica I just wanted to say your first post hit a nerve with me- I think you've summed up exactly how I feel. I know my body will never be the same again and, in some respects, I need to hear that.

Like someone else said, ED are never truely 'gone'; we just learn to cope with them. But there will be triggers.

Stupidly, I'm proud of the fact I haven't gained much weight (a stone at 33 weeks) and I know it's not healthy to be glad. Incidentally, I've mentioned it to all and sundry and they say I'm measuring the right size and I'm healthy, so it's not a concern to them.