Early pregnancy after IVF. Please come here to worry and support!

[NookNook]

Right then! Come here if you are 4-12 weeks and can't stop fretting. Didn't think anything could be worse than the 2WW? Think again!

[NoMaybeAboutIt]

not a dick at all Prammy. I am pleased what happened happened. I was desperately unhappy and now feel so much better for it!

[PramelaAftersun]

I promise I don't have a messiah complex.

[PramelaAftersun]

...nor am I Denise Welch

[Lifeasafish]

Ffs - I've only just found you!

I've been stressing about hearts and development and need your experiences of how you dealwith t. Anyway, I'll read back now!

[NoMaybeAboutIt]

Prammy are you sure you aren't Denise? I've never seen the two of you together!!

fish! Hurrah!

[Lifeasafish]

I'll be back later/tm, but I'm here.

Scan is 1st aug, i'm currently 5 weeks 6 days. Tests are still strong and I've got a digi for tm morn.

I'm east London btw.

[NoMaybeAboutIt]

Not long till the first now Fish! You must have spent a fortune on your digis! I was eased to see line move up after two. If it hadnt gone up, I too would be buying shares I. Clearblue

What's for dinner?

[NookNook]

Hello Fish!!!

[Lifeasafish]

nomaybe about 20 quid. I bought 2 double digi's and I've 1 left. I want to see if its gone past 2-3 weeks.

But I found some tests in the pound shop - double pack for a pound. Asda now sell them too. So my test a day hasn't been too bad on the pocket. A fiver gets me 10 days worth.

I missed 2 days of testin and it made me more anxious I think. I tend to check the tests throughout the day you see. I've yesterdays and todays next to me on the sofa now, and all of the pound shop ones used... x2

[Lifeasafish]

Oh and the first seems eons away.

Hey nook gives royal wave.

[PramelaAftersun]

Fish, you sound really anxious. What's this about hearts and development?

[NoMaybeAboutIt]

If it's helping Fish, that's all that matters! I've kept all my tests too, they're on my bedside table

Time does seem to be going very slowly, you're right. The 13th seems like a long way away!

[Lifeasafish]

I bet it does nomaybe. Sorry - I'm being self indulgent.

juicy (i prefer it!) you've probably not read the other thread. I realised last week that our embie was due to grow a heart. And for some reason I cannot get it out of my head that it must be such a hard task for it to do. It's already been through so much.

Totally irrational I know. Every animal with a heartbeat started somewhere, but I am seriously struggling with the concept of my 3 mm embie growing a heart.

I think I just need to accept that I cannot get my head around this until next week. I've no symptoms, though DH has noticed my boobs are bigger and heavier. He still won't shag me though... Scared he might damage something and no. While he is 'blessed' he is not hung like a 20" porn star.

We havent had sex for weeks

[Lifeasafish]

I've had a 2 day headache, am tired but no concrete symptoms.

I was feeling queasy on and off but its probably due to my drinking milk. 1 more week til scan. Sigh.

[NoMaybeAboutIt]

Don't you apologise Fish! We are here for support!! I've had a constant headache too. It's fine to take paracetamol, my nurse told me.

On the sex front, is it ok now? I know it was banned after transfer, but if I'm honest, I feel like a dog on heat

Being an embryo is amazing. They get through so much stuff. My friend is a midwife. She told me there is now evidence to suggest that talking to your embryo actually encourages brain development!! Even at this early stage!!

[Lifeasafish]

Sex has always been fine! We were told so after ET, but I had been so swollen and sore due to my ovaries there was no way he was coming close.

Maybe its the progesterone as I'm like a bitch in heat.

[NoMaybeAboutIt]

Is it only us on the sex ban then?!

Are you drinking the milk for a reason?

[MotorcycleMama]

fish I'm sorry you are having a hard time. 1 week to go til scan. My scan has been brought forward slightly, so I am now a day ahead of you and mine is on Wednesday. I'm really glad I'm not the only one who lined up all the tests and kept looking at them obsessively. I have stopped now though, because the line can only get so dark! And the CB digi one said 2-3 weeks when I should have been 3+ weeks, so I got scared. My beta hcg taken the next day was pretty high, so I think that is a more accurate test.

Hi nook and maybe

juicy when is your scan?

[Lifeasafish]

nomaybe there is no reason. I'm lactose intolerant but at times my gut can produce enough enzyme or whatever it is that breaks down the lactose.

Then it stops

And i go through a period (months) where I'm sick/ queasy. I only have a tiny bit of milk with my tea/ coffee, but it tastes awful without. It could be a symptom I don't know.

Clear blue has shown 1-2 instead of 3+. Shit. Chemical has come to mind.

[NoMaybeAboutIt]

Fish try not to panic yet. How many weeks are you now?

[MotorcycleMama]

fish Why not arrange 2 hcg blood tests? One result on it's own won't help particularly, but 48 hours apart will show if things are progressing as they should. The HPTs are not really helping. I hate to see you going through this. You've had no bleeding, right? I'm sure everything will be just fine. X

[NookNook]

Fish it's rotally understandable to be feeling like this. You've been through so much to get to this point. Some people just don't have symptoms, especially at this early stage. I know you know all this already but you have to keep reminding yourself that the odds are well and truly stacked in your favour (a hard thing to adjust to after IVF!). I won't give you a slap but I will give you a slightly rough cuddle and a stern but loving look.

Motor is he guru of hcg tests. I think it's a really good suggestion. Where are you based? Tests sem to be easy to arrange in big cities.

[Lifeasafish]

6 weeks today...

The doc and I had a chat yesterday and the conclusion was that the blood tests wouldn't satisfy my immediate fears. He actually offered to try to send me for an early scan wi the caveat that it would pribably be after my booked scan.

But I will call the surgery this morning and see if they will sort a test.

I've not had any bleeding at all, but the progesterone would stop that.

This is silly really, I've lost all the neutrality that I had during the cycle and am now neurotic. Which I am not happy about .

Just seems way to good to be true.

[Lifeasafish]

Thank you for your support, I sound exactly like what I don't like to be! Somehow the Ivf was a bit easier emotionally, even when mine was close to abandonment.

I'll call when the surgery opens.

[NoMaybeAboutIt]

I know what you mean Fish, I was so chilled through the IVF. It's only now I worry!

Also,the progesterone wouldn't necessarily stop you bleeding of things were bad. A take the non-bleeding as a positive sign . Hope your dr was of some help x