Early pregnancy after IVF. Please come here to worry and support!

[NookNook]

Right then! Come here if you are 4-12 weeks and can't stop fretting. Didn't think anything could be worse than the 2WW? Think again!

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Hello! Glad you're feeling a bit better Motor. Looking forward to your update tomorrow!

AFM nothing at all to report. No more sludging. Very occasional cramps. Can't wait for my scan on Tuesday. That's all!

Booooring.

And I saw the news about Wim. Amazing. So happy for her. Let's lure her over here!

No maybe chicken is for Mr Motor. I don't eat meat or fish.
Poor you being ill. I hope you are not going to work tomorrow.
My scan is at 09.30, on my own, and then on to work. I just hope it is good news. Funny, I feel neither optimistic or pessimistic.
How are you nook?

X-posted nook - nothing to report and boring has to be the best way!
Yes, great news re wim. There are 3 others testing this week I think - lots of hand-holding.

Oh motor I wish I could come and hand hold. All is going to be great, and you'll get to see how much he/she has grown!!

No, I won't be going in. GP has told me to rest until I'm well

Poor Maybe. Is Mr Maybe going with you on Tuesday?

Hello..... I'm coming to check out the dark side! Not quite ready to do more than dip toe in water tentatively - can't believe I am pregnant! Aghhh! It sounds like the worry now ramps up though - motor, I am so hoping to be reading good news from you tomorrow, and maybe - you need to get well lady. Nook and pram - tell me about this dark side then?!
Ps pram - 5 day hatching ab+ (embryologist said we were top of the class! I was so proud - and look at my embryo photo all the time

So amazing to see you here Wim!! I still don't think it's sunk in . Dinner tonight will be extra special for you!!

Yes Nooks, he is. Is MrN going with you?

Welcome wim - delighted you are joining us. How has Mr Wim taken the news?

Hello Wim! I don't think mines sunk in yet either.

Yes Maybs Mr N will be there. I think it's he only way he'll know its really happening. Must be really strange for them.

It must be strange. It's still really strange for me. I feel quite disconnected if that makes sense? Hopefully if all is well on Tuesday, I won't feel like that anymore!

I'm in a vile mood..

What's up chuck?

Dunno. I'm having one of those days where I want to stab entirely innocent people. I'm hungry all the time and nothing satisfies me. We've taken my sister's two cats in today while she goes away for nine days and they are already missing after having twatted my two and buggered off through the catflap. Sis has very wisely asked me not to contact her with any cat-related emergencies until she's back from her hols. I don't blame her. Not a lot you can do from Portugal if your cats are splattered under a lorry in East Lancs. I have resisted the urge to get my hair bleached thanks to the pregnancy myths and my black roots are so long I've been invited onto the Jeremy Kyle Show. We have No Money until the 26th when th'usband gets paid. I have no chocolate in da house.

More worryingly I have had palpitations, breathlessness and heart flutters all afternoon. 74bpm is nowt to worry about though, right? I've read at this point in pregnancy the heart is having to pump 40% harder. It feels like it.

...one cat is back

Oh Pramster. What a day. Cats are independent, stubborn little buggers. They'll be back.

74bpm is absolutely fine. I too have had palpitations the last few days, and am very breathless. Which is not like me at all. The doc had a listen to my heart and said it was a-ok. So the same goes for you.

If you're not comfortable bleaching, have you considered maybe going a tad darker?

I feel your pain on the no money. I cannot wait to get my first pay!! What a novelty!

The second cat is back Thanks, Marbs, for reassuring me re palpitations. I, too, am discomfited by the notion of my heart feeling 'unfit'. I am really strong and fit from extensive training before I embarked on IVF. I also pattern-match palpitations and a racing heart to the Dark Years when I suffered from panic attacks. Of course, I'm not anxious now, but the racing heart brings back shit memories of despair and hopelessness.

Yes, I will be going back to my natural colour (I can't afford the astronomical price of colouring when baby comes) but I daren't let colour near my head until the second trimester.

I can't wait until you get paid, either, cos you can take me out for hot cherry pie with real dairy icecream

Oh Prambie that totally makes sense. I have had a few panic attacks, and can honestly say they are beyond terrifying. But that's not you now, no siree.

I'm waiting for the magic 12 week mark when I shall glow, and be able to stay awake for more than an hour at a time.....

I had a dream about you the other night not that sort we were in a pub and our husbands were pissed.

I love cherry pie. Oh yes indeedy. So pleased the cats are back

Oh, Marbie, panic attacks are the lowest depths of misery, are they not? I was hospitalised several times and saw two different psychotherapists, was on beta blockers, then antidepressants. They stained my personality and stunted my career for a long time. The depression was worse. Very poorly at times.

But....here we are! Pregnant and happy as pigs in faeces!

I adore cherry pie. Two great friends are coming tomorrow to visit: Jean and Shelley, who are both in their seventies and my favourite people from the church I used to attend (which I now sorely miss but it is too far away). I'm taking them for cherry pie to the Victorian tea rooms I went to last week with my mate, Biba. Didn't have the pie last week so...

Oh Prams that sounds terrible. Absolutely terrible. But I'm so pleased you fought your way out of it. And now look at you!!

I can feel a song by Yazz coming on.....

I'm jealous!! Have a slice for me. And make sure it's warm. It's so nice you've kept in touch.

I wonder if you'll go there with Hazel one day?

Stop it!

Oh, and the panic attacks/depression were not The Fing Wot Caused The Epiphany. That was far, far worse

..will I be having the cherry pie warm? Does a bear shit in t'woods?