Early pregnancy after IVF. Please come here to worry and support!

[NookNook]

Right then! Come here if you are 4-12 weeks and can't stop fretting. Didn't think anything could be worse than the 2WW? Think again!

Yes Maybe we are scan twins!

No rhyme or reason indeed. Just the way it is. I've been stalking the March 2014 thread (which Pramola is on). Seems to me that they're all just as freaked out as we are. Not sure how that helps but it just makes me feel more normal.

Stalking?! I do that too, shh it's true, does make you feel normal. We are indeed scan twins. Lots of hand holding that day. Remind me of your time again. My brain isn't working!

I love Pramelicious!

Tomorrow I am making my speciality: spag bol.

Panics are weird, aren't they? There's no rhyme or reason, it's simply good old-fashioned paranoia. IVFers reckon the worries continue unabated throughout pregnancy but I defy anyone to say that it gets worse than this awful first twelve weeks. I am managing to look ahead to the birth and holding my baby in my arms but the brown sludge is so disconcerting no matter how I dress it up.

Religion threads: yes, these are public forums but there is a dedicated team of mumsnet atheists who bulldoze threads asking things like: How do I come to believe in God? How do I know he exists? They say the same things time after time: 'Find a hobby instead which doesn't require you to believe in pixies'; 'there is no God. Hope this helps'; and 'why would you want to believe in a misogynistic, cruel, baby-slaughtering Abrahamic God?' (this from the feminists).

I am so defensive of a God who physically saved me from death and spiritually saved me, too, that I want to kill those who denigrate Him. Maybe not kill but seriously maim. How do you explain the origins of your faith and the miracles which are evident in your life without outing oneself? I have so much to say and share but can't.

I'm more nervous for Chocs than I was for my own test day, I kid you not.

Girls, I am not going to evangelise on here, I promise. I will never make you feel uncomfortable or rabbit on about my faith, I'm just nettled today is all.

Aaah, prammy, really??!! That's very sweet of you. I get what you mean about picturing the BFN and all, but having been there and had that shit feeling, I think I'll stay positive while I can as there's plenty of time for the sadness if needs be. Ta for the chips earlier by the way! Sorry to hear you're still having the sludge, but great news that you're 9 weeks today - fantastic!

Religion is a tricky one, I'm usually of the opinion that people can believe what they want to believe and I really don't see why anyone should be able to slag people off if they don't agree with them or make them feel bad about themselves

maybe and nooks it's lovely that you're scan twins

beetle great guiness world records link, I'll have a look properly in a bit.

Well, I was lying on the bed an hour or so ago after DH did my gestone injection and I have just woken up from a surprise half hour nap but I refuse to read anything into it of course

I am sure I misspelt 'wintry' yesterday. I am thoroughly ashamed

We'll let you off Pramtastrophe . I so want to hear you story. I have a feeling it's amazing. I too hate people slagging off religion. Despite not being overly religious myself, I know it plays such an important part in people's lives and I always appreciate it when people say a prayer for me.

I love a good spag Bol. What's your secret ingredient?

Chocco there is nowt more satisfying to me at the moment than a nap. So indulgent!! I'm a nap convert. Is Friday test day?

MarbieAndKen, my spag bol is the stuff of nightmares. I chuck bacon, celery, worcestershire sauce, soy sauce and carrots in. It's utter filth.

I don't want you to think that The Fing Wot Caused The Epiphany is something that only I have ever been through. I went to hell and back and have sworn that I will end my life before going back there again, but others experience their own hell when they hit rock bottom, whatever form that takes. I will tell you all about it if we ever have a meet-up.

Your spag Bol sounds immense. I use all the above but not the soy. It sounds really interesting though!! Umami. Nom. I have a massive craving for pizza, which made me feel sick cos I wanted it so much. So I ate a gingernut instead.

Maybeline my scan is at 9.40. When's yours?

Choco only you know how you feel (duh) what I mean is if you feel positive then go for it!! I'm positive for you. Whoohoo!!!!

I can no longer drink s

Maybelline is brilliant! Blimmin' genius. I am so devvo'ed I didn't think of it

I think I've told you this before over on Th'egg Buddies fred, but when the advert for Maybelline comes on th'usband leaps out of his chair, points to his crotch and sings, 'maybe it's my bellend'. I still snort despite knowing what's coming.

Me neither Prammy. The thought of it makes me shudder. Though I just forced some peppermint down my neck to try and reduce my belly

mines at 12 Nookie

I find it hard to play around with NookNook's name

Thinking of you for today motor

Also thinking of you Motor x

Thanks maybe and choco. I'm thinking of you too!
Hi to fish if you are lurking. X
Even though I fear bad news, I just can't wait to get this scan done so that I can deal with whatever the result is and get on, rather than living in limbo. DH is being very supportive.

What time are you up Motor?

Hi all,

Hi motor just popped in to wish you all the best. I am wishing a heartbeat for you with the very core of my being.

Hope everyone else is well, I'm up tomorrow but had such an horrific blood result from last week that I am expecting a chemical. It just needs to be confirmed. I'll let you all know either way.

relurks (in fact, I'm not even lurking - I am fully avoiding andhave been for days!)

Thinking of you, Motor.

Fish, I am so, so sorry. Massive hugs.

fish I am so sorry to hear that. Is there any room for positivity, or are the results conclusive? Please keep in touch, and feel free to PM if easier. Thinking of you.Xxx

Scan all good. Good strong heartbeat, and measurements all healthy. A real relief. X

Oh motor thats wonderful! I'm over the moon for you! How do you feel?

Ok - No platitudes please (facts/debate are fine)

So, at exactly 4 weeks past EC (6 weeks pregnant) I begged the doc for a blood test as you know. This was last Thur. I was told I could have 1 and be grateful for that.

I found out on Monday that the result from that test was 96. No, its not a typo, I haven't missed 000's. 96. Obviously I cannot have another to measure how its doubling, but at 6 weeks it should be well into the '000s.

I'm still producing positive tests (lines are same as they were after getting faint for a little while). No bleeding at all, very minor cramping, no symptoms and I'm sure my boobs have gone down.

I've been in an absolute state since Monday. Those bloods can only mean 1 thing - chemical.

Clinic and docs have been non-commital, GP will not confirm a pregnancy with that blood result. Nor will they send me fo another test. Clinic advice - wait for scan.

Motor can I be the first