8 weeks pregnant, DH is happy, i dont want it

[havingtonamechange21]

When the doctor asked me if it was planned i said no, but it was a happy accident, i dont know what to do, i was taking the pill, but badly, forgetfully, its my own fault
I just keep wishing it would go away
I cant abort, would break my DHs heart
I dont want to be a mum
I dont know where to post this, sorry if its in the wrong place, if it is please report, i just need to get it out somewhere

You aren't the first person, and you certainly won't be the last whose first thought on seeing the second line was "OH HOLY FUCK, WHAT HAVE I DONE".

I'm another who had this reaction.

Twice :o

It's overwhelming.

But I don't think I was anything like as panicked as you sound.

I think going to the doctor tomorrow is a really, really good idea.

Haha maryz that is totally how I feel! I reckon I was passing breeze blocks at the scans cos I was convinced they would ask my why the f*ck I was there. I kept the stick til my first scan (took it with me too) so I could show them why I was there!

Oh op, I'm glad you've found some comfort from this horrible lot

I also second Marie stopes helpline as a non invasive ear who will know about all the options and are very experienced in helping you unravel your feelings

You've got plenty of time to make a decision, if you think you might just be panicking from shock then hold back on doing anything permanent.

Another one hear with a planned pregnancy who thought 'fuck, fuck, FUCK' for about 3 months!

It's normal reaction to finding yourself in a situation that will totally change you life.
Slightly different but my best friend worked bloody hard at access courses etc to get into uni and out of the shit hole we grew up in (as a single parent to her dd) the night before handing in the keys to her 3 bedroom council house in the nastiest, drug swamped estate ever to move to a 2 bed flat in studentville-on-sea, she nearly changed her mind and was hysterical. I mean its the biggest no brainier going but the fear at relinquishing her chance to change her mind...

Maryz: 11 years, 2 adoptions and BAM! Ffs!!!!! The mind boggles!

Kept the stick

I know, sad or demented...its a fine line!

Petrified is a completely normal reaction whether planned/unplanned, wanted/unwanted. I'm pregnant with my first at the moment which I put off until 35 because I just wasn't convinced I could do it and I'm still completely terrified about the whole undertaking. I regularly stop and think 'what the fuck have I done'. And mine was planned! It's a huge thing to find out about and deal with regardless of your circumstances.

And yes to what everyone said about pg hormones - they're nuts. No matter what choice you make going forward, get yourself some prenatal vitamins now, they do wonders for the morning sickness and mood swings.

This thread has made me literally laugh out loud for the first time in 3 weeks thank you all, reminding me again why i always come back to you nest of vipers :)

in denial, numb, flat and a whole heap of anything but excited emotions. Made a whole lot more uneasy by the fact that my dp was pinging off the ceilings after a week and has the biggest grin ever BabyH you just summed up the exact emotions in this house at the moment aswell, so hard to admit how low its making you when they are so happy

Are marie stopes not more for people who have made up there mind? I always thought they were. I will give them a call if i get some time to think before the doctors tomorrow

Im not sure if its just shock, or maybe just not ready, but thank you all for responding, caring and making me laugh when i thought i had hit rock bottom

Admitting it is the hardest thing, but you need to be honest with him huni.

I thought long and hard about aborting. And in end I couldn't go through with it. I am still not ecstatic but am happier.

I have come to the conclusion that everything happens for a reason, this was obv someones idea of the right time.

Ultimately the decision is.yours and bf but if you were thinking maybe one day but not today maybe today is one day?

Maryz stop it or I am.gonna have to find apack of tena, I am dying reading Ur posts xxx

Very true

I vividly, vividly remember the night I got my first ever positive pregnancy test. We wanted it, had planned it, I had come off the pill, we conceived on the second cycle. I remember going to bed thinking 'oh shit, oh shit, oh SHIT. WTF have I DONE. I don't want this. It's all going to go horribly wrong'.

I am a very happy mother of two. I think there are a heck of a lot of people for whom pregnancy is not all about straightforward bliss from the moment that second line appears. It is such a big life change that some conflictedness is par for the course. However, I'm not saying any of this to dismiss your fears or your feelings. They are real, and you deserve to be able to talk this through in a safe space free from judgement.

I felt like this first time round, and I feel it again now with my 3rd pregnancy (no 2 was a MC). I really hope you can resolve it OP, and that you can feel happy.

I just wanted to add that I haven't yet got a ruined body. No droopy boobs or ruined fanjo. Even after breast feeding for 2 years. And I'm 35 so no spring chicken :) Obviously the next baby may ruin it but I just wanted to add a bit of positivity about that side of things!!!

For me the panic is partly a control thing. I know it's just a facade but I feel mostly in control of my life and my choices, and I'm fairly sure I can keep holding down a job and feeding/housing DH and I etc. I'm even fairly sure I can make the dog be well-behaved most of the time.

But suddenly, pregnant. I don't know if the bean will be healthy. I don't know if I'll cope with working throughout with pg symptoms. I don't know if I'll cope with birth. I don't know how to bring up a baby (other than obvious basics- don't drop, regular food, regular cuddles, regular naps, change nappy...). I don't know where we'll be living or what we'll be doing for the next 18 years while I'm responsible for this new person. What if, what if, what if...

So yes, I hear you on the panic. But in the back of my mind I've been thinking - I'm not incompetent at life (it's not a breeze but I don't think it's supposed to be) and LOTS of other people manage this. So perhaps it's about making it up as you go along. I'm still terrified though!

That said, we have been planning this for a while - career wise and home life wise I'm ready for it. 10 years ago I would NOT have been ready and a termination would most certainly be on the cards (and was, for me). So I think you need to sift through normal panic to facts and feelings about your situation.

Please, spidersandslugs, not such drastic emotive imagery, not here. This is not the time and it is not the place.

spiders how dare you post such a vile comment. The op needs emotional support to get her head around being pg bot a viscious attack about abortion

Spiders tht was completely unnecessary!!

I have reported you comment and I suggest you withdraw it.