Need to off load!!
Had my first midwife appt today! I'm 11+1 and very excited, this is my second child and I'm over the moon I couldn't wait to attend the midwife today and start my process off. Until to my despair, we walked in to the room and a trainee nurse was there, not only that, but I know her very well, from school, we were never best friends but we are Facebook friends so counts as something!
This for me is a nightmare none of my family and friends really know yet (keeping quiet until after our scan etc and I panicked, the moment I seen her. We exchanged hello's and the midwife said "oh you know each other? Excellent, then you don't mind her sitting in as she is training?"
Em.... I blurted out not sounding so compassionate "no! I'm not very comfortable due to us knowing each other" the MW and trainee looked baffled! But obviously accepted my wishes.
This is my first appt, going over all medical history between myself and my partners previous operations etc, so personal. I feel so bad as I know trainees need to learn but I am also worried that she may tell someone, scared that now I have to rush to tell people. I know there is patient confidentiality and I know she's a nice person if she happens to tell her husband and her husband somehow blurts it out I'm so worried!!
I also felt that the midwife should have asked before we were in front of each other, but not sure if this is routine.
Stress! Just needed to let it off my chest 
and breathe....