I started two threads because I was trying to find stories of women who drank alcohol (frequently and/or heavily) before they found out they were pregnant. To recap very quickly- I was having a glass or 2 (rarely 3) of wine with dinner most nights of the week. When I thought my period was coming on, I went to a party and had 2 bottles of wine. It turns out that I was 4 weeks pregnant when that happened.
I have an anxiety disorder, a recent diagnosis. (I started therapy to cope with the pregnancy stress.) I found myself drowning in fear and anxiety over what I did and the risk of harm to the baby, to the point where I was actually at a clinic today, about to have an abortion at 10 weeks.
I could not do it. For one thing, my husband is completely against abortion and wants this baby. For another, I remembered that there is still a chance that the baby could be okay. I kept thinking that if I terminated, it would all be over. But it felt like that was just something I was saying to myself, to find some relief.
So, I walked out. And I will not go back.
In reassuring myself that I did the right thing for me, for this pregnancy, I went back and re-read the posts from women who responded to my previous threads. Thank you again for your thoughts.