here goes, there going to be alot to this!!
Felt a bit odd for last couple of weeks, then found a lump in one boob and had a major panic! Was visiting family last week and even got my sis in law to have a feel! Boobs were sore anyway as waiting for af... Now, my cycles range between 26 and 38 days, yesterday was day 39, so thought id better do a test. Picture the scene...at airport, try to explain what i needed in chemist... Sign language of course!! So, went and p on stick.... Positive. Sat on plane for 2 half hours saying to myself omg,omg omg...alot more times than that!! Arrived a destination, straight to chemist, bought a double clear blue, did one last night, pos..other this morn, pos.... So, me thinks its really true!
Not sure how i feel.... Partner, is just that really... Started about a year ago, bit of a friend with benefit, last 6months we have grown quite close, but didnt really think long term as hes 10 years younger... And im 41! Have no other children...am separated, not divorced, work abroad... And omg, dont know what to do!! Also, have been drinking quite heavily recently...and i smoke... Oh, and my mum dosnt even know i have a boyfriend!!!
Just needed to write it all down.....