I know people go far more over then this. I also know that my baby is healthy. But I am feeling so sorry for myself today (I also know this is very self indulgent!). I have 2 other dc's who have been great but are finding the wait probably even harder then I am, except instead of moping about they are soooooo hyperactive with each other and getting increasingly difficult for me to get a handle on.
DH comes home every night from work and complains about how tired he is, or how his shoulder hurts, or his knee, or something that's wrong with him
. The midwife won't take my concerns about having a big baby seriously, despite my last one being 9lb 5.5oz and I'm only 5'2", and won't induce me even 2 days earlier then next thursday.
I feel like an elephant and soooooo unattractive. It feels as though DH hasn't been near me for weeks or even slightly appreciates that it's hard for me at the moment. I am paranoid about something happening to the baby because I am over, even though rationally I know this is unlikely.
Yesterday day I felt fine, last night and today I am clearly having a melt down :( Sorry for the self indulgent, woo is me post but I don't really want to talk to anyone in RL about it. In fact I might try and find a cupboard to hide in and hope someone else comes to look after my dc's for the day :)