Is it this bad for everyone or is something wrong?

[babyandadog]

4 months PP
I hate everything
I'm so tired
I feel like a failure
I hate my partner
I want to get in bed and not get out for a month
I want someone to take my baby away from me
I have no time for my animals and no patience
I have no energy
It feels like a rat race with no end in sight
I have done so much wrong and want to go back and start over

Parenting is bloody exhausting, I felt pretty much the same. However I was also diagnosed with PND as well and so I may have felt that everything was magnified more.
Have you spoken to a GP about how you feel? I wonder if you may have some depression?

It does sound as though you might need some extra support.

I'd talk to PANDAS Foundation tomorrow then book an appointment with your GP