Heh heh, I am so Welsh!
Thanks to everyone about all the good comments - going I think you summed it up, and I'm sort of relieved that I've confessed. (I was kind of staying off the thread for that reason, really.) I should stress it's not major drama - well, I do scream 'divorce' when I'm being a drama queen! - but practical issues: living apart, DH worried about money versus not spending enough time here, me worried about career versus everything, and the 'functional' aspect I mentioned: we're in this weird childcare conveyor-belt thing. But we do need a referee when we argue discuss. We're both argumentative by nature and by career choice and won't budge an inch.
Many thanks for all the prayers and offers of hand-holding - I'll accept anything superstitious, including tips from our recent-new-job-not-down-to-God-in-any-way Eddie!
I also think several of you on here might have practical advice.
Anyhow, feeling ok about things now becuase I saw the Union rep today (I arrived early and could hear someone ranting about his job, v. stressed and upset - didn't listen, obv, but you can tell from tone of voice - and the person who came out before me was...a staff member at history ).
She was v. v. useful. (a) the job advert is on ropey ground legally, apparently: it gives the appearance of being a permanent position, then has this disclaimer that the job might only be until June 2011 subject to funding, and that's Not On apparently.
(b) the shockingly low wage - apparently also not allowed.
(c) The Union will be on standby if I don't get shortlisted. (I bloody well should be - I meet all the essential criteria, all the desirable criteria, and every single one of them is demonstrable and also I surpass the requirements on all of them.) So that major wobble - which has been freaking me out a lot, it's my big fear: not even getting the chance - is resolvable. Ish.
(I didn't ask about (b), and only indirectly asked about (a), but it seems things will be done about both now.)
Luckily I'm not panicking or anything...
Baby names - well, I'm really really keen on Verity and practically stalked Valium to name Annabel () that. So I might start my new campaign on Amber now. I like talking about baby names but mainly because I can express likes and dislikes on English names but I'm not part of the draw IYKWIM.
Girls names are hard though. Ruth - very pretty and not very common these days? Love Esther - Neenz has already used that so don't use it again, Neenz - and I also like Stella, but I think that might have connotations for an English person? I just think it's pretty.