August 08 - We three kings of orient are, one in a taxi one in a car..

[steaknife]

...one on a scooter beeping his hooter, smoking a fat cigar

Apologies to the goodly and the good amongst us.

dig away ladies, tis why I posted the emails.

It is and it isn't raw - it has been nearly 6 months. In some ways easier because we don't see each other at all, but then harder to work through things when we do. IYSWIM.
I was so , deliberate eschewing of festive hat, but there is no benefit to me saying what I would really like to.
Oh and maintenance arrived today, fecking exchange rate, which always pees me off. Another reminder of what isn't.

bah humbug.

But, I did make lots of lovely pastries and bestow them festively on Electro Dave who helps me with my pooter, Phil the estate agent and The fabric shop on the corner. Along with friends that have been lovely to me.

And bezzy mate came down a day early, nice for me but not for them cos it was because their water tank exploded.

Actually it is going to be a lovely Christmas as I will be catching up with all sorts of folk.

cyteen I too suffer from anxiety but you've explained it better than I could ever manage to.

do you think if we asked MNHQ nicely they'd let us have a cat bum mouth smiley?!?

right, have to go and finish the wrapping

aarrgghhhhhh inside of ear is now itching, I wonder if I stick a knitting needle far enough up my nose and twiddle it would it help

I had something else to tell you but am buggered if I can remember - obviously thrilling

oh oh I remember, TS I found my video of DD1 in the panto - was my own terrible downloading/filing efforts - I have now, however, lost the sodding memory stick out of the camera - hopefully when I get around to some tidying tomorrow it will turn up [not fecking likely short of a Christmas miracle emoticon!!]

tis on FB if anyone would like to see my pfb doing her thriller dance - not offended if you don't but its worth it to hear Dylan shouting at her on stage

LWFH, Cyteen has just reminded me that i meant to say re DS and the pushchair, i'm afraid i would just be strapping him in regardless of a tantrum. When you have two, sometimes one or other will be upset by your choices but c'est la vie IMO. You cannot bugger up your back or not babywear DD1 (if that is what you want to do). He will get used to it, and you will need him to get used to it as DD gets older and you need both in a buggy. [harsh mother/tough love emoticon]

cyteen glad you are feeling better.
ONthe blanket thing, I feel the same.

The other day I stood outside dd's bedroom (not sure why) when I had said goodnight.

Something made me go back in and she was under the quilt. All wrapped up around her head and neck.(she never does this)

Now I didn't show any panic to her, and I casualy asked her what she was doing and on unwrapping her she was bright red,sweaty and could hardly breathe.
scared me to death tbh.

ooh and I got some brand new baby love today too. [melt]

bezzy mate's premmie boy is now five months and all filling out and not looking crumpled any more. Still all squeaky and snuzzley but also just starting to look around and interact. I got a smile. [melt]

sazzles I agree re pushchair. I do exactly that

aw steaky I am very very broody, in fact I think this bloody pony purchase was a baby substitute, but it ain't filling the gap.

However af just arrived this evening.

Bloody hell that was quick dizz. Now i am aware of the pitfalls of a postbox at the end of the drive i shall be arranging for DH to move it closer forthwith

no1 how scary , but glad mothers instinct kicked in, and well done on staying calm

Watching Bridget Jones with glass of wine and cheese

Sazz yes, I had my first real experience of back-arching pushchair refusal the other day. It was hilarious [bad mummy] No choice but to put him in though; I needed to get round the shops, he was tired and he's just at the wrong age to be able to wander free in a busy shopping centre.

steak just to be clear, the retaining of festive hat was on your behalf, not his

no1 eek, how scary I used to burrow under my covers all the time as a nipper as was terrified of the dark, but often got too hot and breathless. Eventually I perfected the technique of wrapping the duvet round my head with just a tiny mouth hole open for me to breathe

ooh glad you reminded me of Brigit Jones, just started watching The Truman Show and think it will be too depressing.

Hugh Grant much better as a cad.

fanks ver much cy

evening all, pil here so can't be long
DS been an absolute star with them so I've been given time to finish the curtains...talking of which, they're not going to get done if i sit on here

hugs to those who need them

paracetamol to those who need them

and twinkle lights to cheer everyone up

cyteen i remember the first time DH observed the need for the back arching strap me down approach and was a bit , but DD1 was in TOTAL meltdown from tiredness and fell asleep 5 minutes later

Thanks for the twinkle lights miamla, very cheery

steaky i am a Mark Darcy lady myself. Hence my tall, dark haired DH

Of course Mark Darcy for keeps but Daniel Cleaver for a sneaky squeeze.

We have more snow.
Won't be able to rest till dh gets home now.

Oh christ. DH has just made sausage rolls and they are bloody delicious. Diet freefall here i come

Hope No2 makes it hme safely. What time is he due?

Good work telling it like it is Steaky, no point pretending. As a concilatory-Christmas-make-him-feel-worse-gesture you could send him this link maybe.

Sorry if I was patronising about blanket anxiety guys. I think it's my semi-Asperger's upbringing (or maybe even genes) that make me not sweat about things I can't control. Similarly I was raised to value practical shows of love (eg DIY from my dad) and I'm not so good at sympathy and just listening. This is all fine for me but have realised lately that it is something my DD finds difficult about me, perhaps she finds me a little cold in that way. I wonder if Kurt will too. Something I need to work on.

Oh and having spent 3years restraining a writhing wrestling DS1 into the pushchair/highchair/carseat everyday I can promise no damage was done. Gotta do what you gotta do, can't do more than 100% and your best will just have to be good enough and other of my Aspergery mottos.

Sorry to have cut 'n run but had a sudden urge to wrap things. Have done DD's, IL's my dad and Dsis. The rest are in the car and can wait until tomorrow I'm not going out in the slushy.

We have decided that DD will get 2 pressies on christmas morning (kitchen and food) then one later in the afternoon when the novelty has worn off. We will then stretch the rest out one or 2 a day until we run out. Am I being nuts? I just think she will be a bit overwhelmed by it all and not play with anything.

I am off to bed now.

Sleep tight all

Sazz - thanks for reminding me to get the sausage meat out the freezer

I love the music in Bridget Jones, just great

buckets DH has the same view re worrying about stuff you can't control (annoyingly sometimes - sorry ). He can't get worked up in traffic jams (can't do anything about it) or anything basically. He can't understand that i get worried/anxious or just want to shout about sitting still in a queue of traffic on a motorway . I have learnt a lot from him though, in that if you can't do something about it then don't worry and just deal with stuff as it happens. Doesn;t stop me just wanting to yell with expasperation sometimes

oops just be led by DD. She will let you know when overhelmed and you can adjust accordingly

Fuckity fuck it. PIL have not made it to Germany as a result of the trains and DH is on the phone inviting them for Xmas

I am being very magnanimous and gracious about it . Hope they say no

oh bless him and his terrible good manners

crisis averted, they have declined DH's ridiculous generous offer

Bless him, DH has just commented that he much prefers Renee Z as she is in Bridget than as a skinny bint. Love him