Just popping in. Thought I'd better as I disappeared just after ds2 was taken ill and hadn't returned.
Ds2 is ok, seems to be improving on ABs and is lively and happy enough in himself, not at all like last year, thank God. Ds1 and dd have had an awful stomach virus thing, that ds1 brought home from the school (50 children and several staff off when I last heard).
Things are pretty tough in general, ds1's behaviour has been truly awful and have been having constant rows with dh, to the extent that I had mine and dd's bags packed and both dd and I in our coats ready to go when he got home last night. Was pretty grim, huge row, dh blocked the door to stop me leaving and we ended up stood in the doorway in stalemate for the best part of an hour before I needed to feed dd and was so exhausted I couldn't stand anymore. I wasn't intending to leave permanently, just get away for a couple of nights, completely away from everyone, him, Mum, sisters and everyone else that thinks they have the right to 'tell' me what's wrong with my life and what I 'should' or 'shouldn't' be doing. I have truly had enough and just need some peace and space, which is something I never seem to get, even for five minutes any more. I thought it I could book into a hotel for a couple of nights with just dd, no housework, cooking, washing, ironing, dog grooming, fight adjudicating, homework etc etc etc, I might actually start to feel physically and mentally a little better. Its no good trying to do it at home, as soon as I sit down I notice something that needs doing or start to feel guilty that I shouldn't be sitting down because there's too much to do.
Anyway, sorry to be such a downer - I probably won't be around much for a little while, as I have nothing positive to say and am too tired to think.
Good luck with everything HKZ, I will try and check in to see how its all going for you and J.