good evening ladies,
i dont have much more than a couple minutes to post ((will have to find the time to catch up in the next day or so...))
time? to do much else besides feed/swaddle/carry around/hold/and feed again ds2? i'm feeling like i'm at the end of my tether and if i dont make a change very soon, the resentment that is growing will become permanent. and thats the last thing i want!!!!
ds2 is ...demanding is an understatement. i REALLY REALLY want nothing more than to enjoy him as a baby right now. but because he only feeds and cries when he's not feeding (bottle or boob, makes very little difference to him) i'm emotionally exhausted . maybe i'm just being a big wuss.
ds2 sleeps like a dream at night! so for that i'm grateful!!! but during the day, its a non stop feeding frenzy. i'm going coo coo!
and its at this point in time that i feel like if i don't turn to ff, full time, i'm going to scream the house down.
he's a beautiful boy, and i really savour the far & few between moments when he is just staring at the wall or at me or dh...
i feel so sad at the thought of "giving in", like i'm failing or something...but would it be so bad ((for the sake of my own sanity & relationship with the baby)) to move to ffing?
:::sigh:::: i think i'm going to make him a night bottle so i know he's going to get a full meal (on top of him only just feeding from both boobs less than an hour ago )...and then have a bit of sleep for myself.
i will catch up on the last few days (hopefully ) tomorrow.
hope everyone is well.
nite!