Yesterday dd2 was just not settling for her nap - wanted to mess and look around, so I eventually decided to get tough (I really needed her to nap as she's been attempting to skip her afternoon nap completely of late). Put her in the cot, shushed and jiggled her and just let her cry a bit until she went to sleep. It took 15 (felt like much longer) minutes to get her fully to sleep with a bit of full on crying and a bit of moany protesting. I was hot and bothered afterwards but made a cup of tea and she slept for over an hour so I thought good.
Night - she went down fine around 7.30. I went to bed at 9.45 and she woke a minute later :( so I went into her. Again she just wanted to mess and fuss instead of settle and I just thought 'I'm not feeding you.' Didn't settle in my arms so I attempted a repeat of the shush and jiggle of earlier.
It went on for 2 hours and I fed at 11pm but she still didn't want to settle.
Dh then took over (tried her in his arms) and it went on for another 40 minutes except she was full-on crying most of that time, she was so wound up, pissed off, and overtired. Eventually I found a dummy (she gave them up about a month ago) and that finally quietened her enough to go to sleep. It took 3 hours in total.
She slept then until 5.45 (a full 5 hours) which was obviously much-needed for both of us, then woke for a feed and went back down fine with no dummy until 7.30.
I feel really horrible about it all today and I'm sure dh does too. Just don't know how to approach this. i still think it's worth not feeding her again if she wakes 2 hours after going to bed but lord the drama about it all. And then even feeding her sometimes doesn't work. I get so frustrated with her even as I KNOW she can't help it and is just a little baby! I need a serious kick up the arse and I think I need to admit that I'm not cut out for sleep training that involves any cc. I think I will inevitably just bungle it/do it wrong and make it much worse for everyone and that's not fair.