Oh God thats awful omama huge hugs. I hear you on not loving the tiny stage. I can't wait for DS to talk. Articulate your needs, goddammit!
DS woke up fully as I said, so I brought him downstairs, changed his nappy, he was full of chat and giggles and loving the world and being a total Disney baby, but just 5 mins later he was rubbing his eyes and wailing for food even though it had only been an hour and a half! So rather than endure screaming till the next feed time I just gave in and fed him to sleep again. Fuck it.
I feel like I'll never figure this out. But at least he went to sleep.