Good evening all. E is still awake, no idea why - well, it might be teeth related but he doesn't seem upset, giggling his merry little head off actually.
Oh, he's gone to sleep now
I did something good today. I wouldn't usually share such a thing but I am pleased with myself and I hoped maybe the quiche would understand. Nobody IRL is very bothered, when I could bounce off the walls for my achievement. I drove the car today. I am sure i've mentioned before I suffer from anxiety, I am terrible with people and I really struggle with driving, it is like torture for me. I'm basically a puddle of a person, who tries to pretend to be real. I used to drive myself to and from uni but that's pretty much all i'd do and that was a couple of years ago. Today, I drove the new car to my aunts house AND I had to get petrol. I have used a petrol station once on my own in the almost five years I have held a license. I may have used a petrol station maybe half a dozen times in total. Anyway. I promised my aunt i would visit so when i got in the car and it said 0 miles i went to get out but e seemed so upset i thought i could hold my breath to the petrol station less than half a mile away. I got there and had gone on the wrong side so went to go home but somehow forced myself to go back round the roundabout and try again. I did it. I even went in to pay. Went in. There is a list as long as my arm about things that terrify me about the above situation, but I did it. Just thinking about it makes me panic, but I hope it's a good step towards using the car more often. I realise i'm rediculous, but I can't hear you all sniggering at me on the tinterwebs so it's ok to tell you
Woohoo for ageing pussy not having kidney failure pass that's fab. Any idea what could be causing a stress response at all? bit odd if she doesn't seem stressed. How old is she again?
yay for the incisor chasing hopefully you'll have a good night tonight
glad you're having a good time atm digger you deserve it
Thanks for pointing out the pfb fred rowing some of it has had me in stitches!
That doesn't sound fun chick my youngest brother did that for a while, I am not sure anything stopped him, he just stopped doing it. I'll ask mum though.
Bless you izzy, I hope tonight is a good one for you especially
yw roaring at his lion jammies is just adorable. bless him!
eek at fleas bp I hate them! FC tis not going to be a problem, if you de-flea yours regularly i'm sure it'll go away as quickly as you found it. horrid things
gt i am not entirely sure how you cope. He needs to change though, you really do deserve better I second vqs suggestion of hidden veg too. Also, have you tried those veggie fingers? a bit like fish fingers but with peas and sweetcorn in? Not sure if he'd eat those but E had a couple today for lunch (With some actual veg, that he threw at me, and some other bits) and loved them. Figured it's a start, right?
pr I tried to do online courses with futurelearn and never did finish one due to time issues. There's some good ones coming up later in the year and i'm really hoping I have time to do at least one! I do like to keep my brain ticking over
perse have some hugs too, what happened? hope you're ok
lily I get e to eat fruit but not veg. Maybe they'll swap at some point? lol! I guess veg is better anyway because there's less sugar in it?