Morning all. Sorry havent caught up properly. evil Bath/Bristol is lovely. Expensive though. Detective meltdown completely normal. Do not compare yourself to other mums, or O to other babies.
Shittest night ever last night. I think I got an aggregate of 45 minutes sleep. DS was snuffly due to cold and needed dummy reinserting a few times, but then fully woke, stayed awake for 4 fucking hours, perfectly happily, and despite having 2 full bottles in that time, fucking refused to go to sleep, despite rocking, shssshing, being walked around. Eventually DH gave him a third bottle which conked him out. 3 fucking additional bottles in 4 hours. WTAF?
And DH did take him for 3 hours while he was awake, but I still exploded at DH (in front of my parents who are visiting) for not helping. And then about an hour after DS finally settled, DD woke for the day. She was very good, played nicely with her babies in my room, but the babies nearly got launched out of the window, and I was terse and abrupt with everyone this morning, including DD and my lovely mum, who offered to make us supper before she left. To DH I was just a fucking viscious bitch. Wouldnt kiss him bye.
And now I am at work, and have a banging headache and I feel like I am going to burst into tears.