I've had a couple of terrible nights. DS has been fine, waking consistently at 2:30, 4:30 and 7:30 (first time it's been consistent times even though inconsistent bed times). However, I've got a bad cough, so firstly I keep waking DS up when he drops off on the breast or in with me in bed. When I manage to hold in my coughs long enough that he gets to sleep, I Jen spend ages coughing. Really getting tired with it now, luckily docs are open tomorrow so I'll go beg for drugs. The pharmacy refused to sell me any.
We've got loads of snow again today, though still managed to get out to swimming (just). DS did his first submersion today and took it all in his stride. Very proud mummy. I think I'll start taking him swimming outside of classes soon.
I can't remember names due to lack of sleep. However I hope the cousin is found soon, must be very stressful. Also, to the mum finding it hard today, try and get a break if you can, and also give yourself a break - you're a wonderful mum, babies cry sometimes and it's ok. They know you love them, you're there for them, just keep cuddling.
DS had a real tantrum last night. Just screaming for no apparent reason. After trying for ages I finally got him to accept the breast and fall asleep - when I spilt cold juice all over his face and terrified him. Trying to dry his face quickly terrified him even more. I felt awful he was crying so hard and obviously panicking. I was crying too and was so angry with myself for doing something so stupid. The first traumatic thing in his life :( I'm nearly in tears again just thinking about it.