Maybe the title of this thread is misleading.
I am middle aged. As a child I was Christened and went to Sunday School.
In my early youth my parents vehemently decided that suddenly they did not believe in God, and we were taken out of Sunday School and no longer attended church, with the exception of Christenings, Marriages and Funerals.
It would be true to say that my childhood was difficult. It was one of those upper middle class childhoods whereby your DCs are a badge of honour. We were brought out and displayed to make my parents look good, though as parents they were hands off, unless we did something very right that they could show off, or very wrong for which they could admonish us. Religious beliefs were scorned.
However, I feel strongly that God has never left me. I believe in the God my Grandparents spoke of, and the valuable lessons I learned through them e.g. do unto others.
I believe that God is in everything, not just churches.
My own relationship with God has been remote, but I have always felt that he is with me.
I see my return to faith as a very personal thing, I neither want, nor need, to go to church. As I said, I believe that God is everywhere.
How do I return to my Christian faith? In a chaotic world, how do I learn more about the lessons of the bible?
I do not want to go on a formal course. As I say, my relationship with God is very personal. I'm asking; how do I enhance, enrich and grow my faith further? How do I pray, for example?
Apologies for the length of this post. I'm serious about this and would be grateful for any serious answers.