@StopStartStop
“Love. The same love you have for your children, if you have them. The same love you have for your parents and friends. It's not sexual (in my experience, though I believe some mystics have experienced it that way) so maybe not exactly the same as you have for partners.
The difference is, it's bigger. Overwhelming. This love doesn't need to 'forgive' your wrongs - this love loved you through them, isn't surprised by them and won't be going anywhere. It's the love that welcomes you home. It's beautiful and warm. You know you are safe.”
Totally concur with StopStartStop here, Christianity is a religion of divine love. The love you have for your spouse/family is part of that, but that part is like an aeroplane journey ascending through the clouds. The love you experience from God is like reaching the heart of the universe, where there’s a powerful, healing, soul disentangling love, beauty and wonder. So merciful and loving that not only can it heal all personal traumas, hurts and griefs, but all humanitarian level cataclysms and tragedies.
I had a mystical experience a couple of years ago that totally aligned with this quote from the Brothers Karamazov…
“I believe like a child that suffering will be healed and made up for, that all the humiliating absurdity of human contradictions will vanish like a pitiful mirage, like the despicable fabrication of the impotent and infinitely small Euclidean mind of man, that in the world's finale, at the moment of eternal harmony, something so precious will come to pass that it will suffice for all hearts, for the comforting of all resentments, for the atonement of all the crimes of humanity, for all the blood that they've shed; that it will make it not only possible to forgive but to justify all that has happened.”
I feel the same thing (not to nearly the same intensity) when I attend Sunday Liturgy now.
It genuinely will be ok in the end, God’s all merciful love will be there for us… but can be found right now through prayer of the heart and an inward humbling of the ego and our personal vanities and passions.