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Christian Prayer thread

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Dutchoma · 25/10/2018 13:32

NIGHT PRAYER

Comfort me with Your love O God
Wrap me up in Your strong embrace
Shelter me from the storm O Lord
Envelop me in Your tender care
By day I pour out my heartbreak to You
By night I give you my racing thoughts
In You I take refuge
In You I will not be afraid
For you hold me strong, You hold me safe
Calm my fearful heart O God
Still my anxious mind O Lord
For all my life is found in You
All my being is given to You
All my hope begins in You

Prayer found on web.dawesvillecps.wa.edu.au/wp-content/uploads/2015/09/17th-September.pdf

I found this prayer on Facebook and tought it was a beautiful way to start the new prayer thread.

There was a beautiful picture with it too, but I don’t know how to transfer that.

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Becca19962014 · 22/11/2018 12:27

mhd I'm sorry to hear that. Hope things improve for you soon.

Becca19962014 · 22/11/2018 12:27

bes I pray you won't have to do it again next year and they can use this information you're giving them now then.

Masie24 · 22/11/2018 22:23

Becca Thank you again to you and everyone else for prayers. Very much appreciated. I hope today has been kinder to you then the last few days. I was sad to read your post from Tuesday.

DS still missing - nearly a week now. Beside myself and going to work to keep myself going. No clues, nothing in spite of widespread publicity. Without his coat and warm clothes. Keep thinking that God must know where he is and could lead me, or the police, to him but no, that's not happening. I know that sounds audacious - God works in ways which we can't possibly fully understand but it's so frustrating.

Becca19962014 · 22/11/2018 22:37

I'm still struggling unfortunately.

I'm sorry to hear he's still not been found. I've continued to remember him and you and your family in my prayers. It's difficult I know.

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Dutchoma · 23/11/2018 08:49

Masie this is so hard and frustrating for you and it is in no way ‘audacious’ to want to take God by the scruff of the neck and shake Him until He grants what we ask Him to do.

And you know that it doesn’t work that way.
What I am going to say might well be controversial but I was told many years ago: if your prayers are not working, stop praying and start praising.
God does indeed know where your son is and holds him in His hands. He loves your son and is capable of keeping him safe - whatever.

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Dutchoma · 23/11/2018 08:52

Masie this is so hard and frustrating for you and it is in no way ‘audacious’ to want to take God by the scruff of the neck and shake Him until He grants what we ask Him to do.

And you know that it doesn’t work that way.
What I am going to say might well be controversial but I was told many years ago: if your prayers are not working, stop praying and start praising.
God does indeed know where your son is and holds him in His hands. He loves your son and is capable of keeping him safe - whatever.

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Dutchoma · 23/11/2018 08:53

Sorry that posted twice

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Becca19962014 · 23/11/2018 09:52

oma I was told that once and it made me really angry. At the time I was getting, much like I am now, very conflicting medical information that I couldn't make sense of and on top of that faith issues. The person (a vicar) who said that to me also blamed me for the difficulties I had with my faith blaming my clothes and activities I'd done in the past (things like acting and role playing and not loving my (abusive) parents enough) as well as lack of church attendence and that I'd been marked for eternity by Satan for doing those things and the overwheaming depression and anxiety was me knowing that.

In the end deeply distressed I wrote to a nun I've written to for many years and was advised to accept God is with me, right there wherever I am whatever I am doing and regardless of whatever I have done or even if I cannot feel him, to prayerfully read psalms and that sometimes, and yes some of those times are heartbreaking, the answer isn't what we want it to be and no matter what I have done, even the things I don't remember doing or can't remember due to mh issues or even can't find it in myself to ask forgiveness for, God has me marked to be his.

I can't say I believe all of what she told me because in my heart what that vicar said was what I dread, I've given it in prayer as best I can (I'm not very good at giving things wholly in prayer but again, he knows that).

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Dutchoma · 23/11/2018 10:30

Becca I am sorry that made you angry. It was obviously bound up with what that vicar said. For the record I think that: ‘if prayer doesn’t work, try praise’ was about the only thing he said that was correct. He will have to give an account before God about the wicked things he said to you. Because I firmly believe that what he said was a very wicked thing to do, nobody, but nobody has the right to judge apart from God alone. The God Who loves you, the God Who is merciful beyond our understanding and Who will, in the end, make all things right. In the meantime we live in an imperfect world and I am sorry your illness is clouding your vision of the goodness and mercy of the Lord.

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Becca19962014 · 23/11/2018 14:58

oma just to be clear I didn't mean you made me feel angry by saying it again. I do understand where it is coming from now.

BlackeyedGruesome · 23/11/2018 23:47

absolutely shattered. been to sleep already once while children were out. tomorrow I start catching up on the washing and the housework.

"The I should have put this, and I should have put that" phase has started.

also found out something of theprocess for diagnosis from an aquaintance.

the waiting is going to be tough.

BlackeyedGruesome · 24/11/2018 10:05

Been thinking about EDS and reading about co morbidities. When one can tick off many on the list, when one can tick off many for DD, when one can see a few of Becca's....

When drs dismiss a link because they only know about their specialism, and not about systemic conditions

There is a common theme of blaming mental health, whereas the link could be the EDS. If connective tissue is fucked throughout the body it is likely to effect many things from brains to toes.

How's your vitamin D? Becca? Ours is v low.

BlackeyedGruesome · 24/11/2018 10:07

Also prayers for missing boys and dodgy lungs , lovely Omas

Becca19962014 · 24/11/2018 10:33

I saw a physio before being diagnosed back in the "it's you reacting to childhood trauma, just get a job" days and she kept going on and on about how it all must be systemic. No one believed her. I even saw a psychotherapist who told me the same thing, after fighting myself for decades to accept it must "just be mental" and months of therapy I let rip at the poor woman in a rage after she told me it must be physical - I did later apologise and said she it was fine she'd expected it!

After I saw the specialists in London and saw the physio again she said to me "bingo" and that was that. Even now over a decade later I still get "been googling have we love? It cannot be that" or the variation of "you don't want that".

I've not noticed a changed since diagnosis really. Except sarky comments about Google or if I watch Corrie Confused

I don't know about my vit D. I was told that collagen (which is what's defective in EDS) was in everything in the body so I could expect everything to be screwed at some point.

The mh thing can definitely be effected by it, because I'm so wobbly when things move unusually, even now there's panic there, even if I'm perfectly ok. I think it's because bodies just aren't supposed to do that!

BlackeyedGruesome · 24/11/2018 11:08

We need to start a campaign...

Expect we are all too bloody knackered to be able to.

Becca19962014 · 24/11/2018 12:48

Quite!

BlackeyedGruesome · 25/11/2018 21:48

grr. bloody menopause.

I am also spectacularly bad at waiting.

Becca19962014 · 25/11/2018 22:02

I know the feeling bes

Lots of appointments this week. Beginning tomorrow. I'd appreciate if anyone sees this prayers for rest as well as my appointment.

BlackeyedGruesome · 25/11/2018 23:30

done

BlackeyedGruesome · 26/11/2018 07:09

for calm and drs being helpful and kind.

Becca19962014 · 26/11/2018 09:21

Thankyou. Social worker today.

Becca19962014 · 26/11/2018 13:05

I cried almost the whole time. Got taxi to get some food as felt capable, saw someone from church, they didn't speak to me, but it reminded me of my godmother who killed herself this year and sobbed the whole way home, which also involved me choking as getting so upset effects my breathing problems now.

I'm missing her so much. I needed help with something this week which has been refused and is adding to my distress and upset as it looks like I'll be made homeless in the new year.

Apparently it's all fine, everyone struggles at this time of year.

Sad

I was going to try and visit a church this week but now I don't think I'll be able to cope with it on top of two pretty major hospital appointments.

BlackeyedGruesome · 26/11/2018 14:53

Flowers Becca.

I have rung the department, appointments are now in the New Year, which seems ages away, but January is only just over a month away. Depends what their definition of New Year is.

Becca19962014 · 26/11/2018 15:59

Thankyou.

I hope you can sort an appointment soon.

BlackeyedGruesome · 26/11/2018 18:01

We have waited two years for the forms to be sent out. Another month or two is not so much. she tries to convince herself it has helped knowing the timeline. And that there is a Christmas in-between to enjoy.