Christian Prayer thread

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NIGHT PRAYER

Comfort me with Your love O God
Wrap me up in Your strong embrace
Shelter me from the storm O Lord
Envelop me in Your tender care
By day I pour out my heartbreak to You
By night I give you my racing thoughts
In You I take refuge
In You I will not be afraid
For you hold me strong, You hold me safe
Calm my fearful heart O God
Still my anxious mind O Lord
For all my life is found in You
All my being is given to You
All my hope begins in You

Prayer found on web.dawesvillecps.wa.edu.au/wp-content/uploads/2015/09/17th-September.pdf

I found this prayer on Facebook and tought it was a beautiful way to start the new prayer thread.

There was a beautiful picture with it too, but I don’t know how to transfer that.

the main bitter sweet moment yesterday was taking her to a pantomime, she clapped and flapped and bounced and cried and got scared and called me mummy, and hugged me, and giggled loudly.

The difference was clearly on display. but it was lovely in that she so loved it and was so excited by it and grinned all the way home.

5 days.

two days passed without too much impatience. washing up and cleaning is not so distracting funnily enough!

4 days and am getting a bad case of the what ifs...

It happens with all assessments. All you can do is pray they were able to understand the issues that were present in the assesssment and can put support in place.

I know what I'm asking is a lot!

I've a social worker appointment tomorrow morning and would appreciate you continuing to remember me in your prayers.

no problem.

there is absolutely no point doing the what ifs, and I am trying to distract, distract, distract...

Logically I know that as well for my situation.. Just not working out that way in reality! I envy people who can give things over in prayer and then leave them with the Lord. Not something I've ever been able to learn unfortunately.

ha, ha, ha, been glued to the mobile phone today as a distraction technique, much to ds's chagrin...

not very good at leaving it with the lord thing either, unless there is a mobile phone involved to distract

3 days.

dd is off school ill.

Praying for your appointment Becca and that you get your outcomes soon and that they are what you need Blackeyed.

I've got to phone again tomorrow as I rang very distressed and said a too much about how much I'm struggling. I didn't lie or anything like that, but I don't think they'd realised how bad I'm feeling.

is that a good thing or a bad thing becca? (ringing tomorrow)

I got into a huge amount of trouble for phoning when struggling as much as I am right now last month and told to stop doing so.

I guess it's a good thing because they're monitoring me more and being supportive but I'm scared because I was told by their manager not to bother them and now I'm worried I'll get into trouble again and I desperately do not need more worry.

how did the phone call go?

down to two days now. the last 24 hours has seemed longer than normal. I did get to catch up with a friend for five minutes or so this morning though.

Ok I guess. There's nothing really they can do but listen.
It's a mess!

I had a difficult panic attack tonight

so sorry becca.

today is the bonkers going to and fro for dd's appointment. then tomorrow is the appointment part two. results day. or pass on for further tests day.

: currently I am feeling it is all going to be my fault and it is shit parenting... I will have changed that position about fifty billionty times before 8 oclock really.

A mother’s place is in the wrong BES. At least as far as every mother’s opinion of herself is concerned. We are none of us perfecr, but we all do our best. Do put the stick (to beat yourself with) down.

In my experience the truely shit mothers have zero comprehension of being shit, worrying about your parenting I'd say is a good thing, but only if it doesn't get in the way of your parenting.

I think that makes sense.

I'm just getting meds today. GP tomorrow.

I am just trying to ignore it all til tomorrow when we find out one of three ways yes no or maybe and further tests.

It is a roller coaster ride of emotions til then. DD is going to wait til she is home to find out.

going to try and get an early for me night.

DD is off school I'll with sore throat. We are taking him to the appointment.

Praying for you this morning bes

I saw my GP this morning.

Have had a panic attack all afternoon. Nothing I tried helped. I've managed to say vespers service (which had a reading that included the statement about the Lord wanting us rid of anxiety which made me cry). Still very jittery, I've literally hyperventilated constantly for almost four hours even when I went to bed thinking I just had a headache.

I seriously considered phoning an ambulance at one point I was so terrified. Nothing I tired worked I ended up pacing up and down which has of course resulted in a lot of pain and dropped blood pressure due to my EDS and other issues.

Please pray that these attacks lessen.
They're really scaring me and I don't know what to do. Nothing that's recommended seems to work!

well, thats because you are a zebra, not a fecking horse. us zebras do react in weird and wonderful ways. (analgesic and local anaesthetic resistence for example) (and then get told we are not reacting how horses should react and why are we not like horses, perhaps it is in our head, but no it is bloody not)

and mine is not even that bad comparitively

oh and sympathies, hope you feel better soon and find what works for you.