Hi the first post of this thread really caught my eye, I have always looked to the moon even as a child and felt some thing powerful from and I still do, I love nature, I feel a connection to animals, they give me an internal feeling that nothing else does! Particularly winged animals, chickens especially?! I make my own scrubs and have a fascination with the powers of herbs just don't have the time to do anything with it at the minute.
I need help tapping into this daily, as a form of guidance or spiritual soul growth, am I in the right place or direction even?
Sorry if this directs the thread, I wasn't sure where to start my own thread but I've recently been doing 12 step meetings and going through the programme with a 'sponsor" and had a massive realisation that it's a huge form of brain washing and basically trains you into thinking you're fucked and the only answer is to keep going to meetings and working the programme. After 9 months my life and mental health has deteriorated so much, I shared this and was told I'm not working the programme enough!! You are taught to watch your thinking constantly for fear, resentment, selfishness and ego - all of which are character defects that only god will remove, and you must seek forgiveness for these. It basically prevents any form of free thinking, intuition and basic human emotion to normal day to day things. This has completely fucked with my mind and I need to find a new way of living that actually corresponds with my inner self. I've spent my who,e life having low self esteem, low worth, thinking I'm a band person and I finally don't feel like any more but this bloody programme is beating me down and basically my own mind is out to get me, it wants me dead and I've not to trust it! I knew something was really wrong so I've taken a step back and done some research which has confirmed my thoughts.
So lovely witches please help me tap into my inner witch (apologies I do t know the right terminology) how do I grow into the person that's inside me and use it daily in my life???