If I could smack myself right now, I would

[phdlife]

I don't want to go into the details, but fgs - I know what I need to do with ds, and yet tonight? tonight I just went straight ahead and did the fecking opposite. Undoing any good I'd achieved during the day.

Don't beat yourself up. Draw a line and start again. If something triggered you losing sight of what you intended to do, try to eliminate that.

Would it help to know why you went ahead and did the opposite?

for instance if it's staying strong and sticking to a particular bedtime, then giving in and letting your ds stay up - are you doing this because deep inside you worry that he will think you don't want / love him if you pack him off to bed? Or do you fear he will not love you if you say / do things he doesn't like?

Sorry for going all analytic on you - but sometimes it helps to know conciously why you do something, even if it's only to reassure yourself that you know it's not the case, and that your ds will love you no matter what, and that you need to do / say the hard stuff for his development in the long term.

Twill come good in the end if you keep going at it, honest!