i almost hurt my dd2 this morning.

[misdee]

still feelign bad. dd2 woke up at 3am and basically screeched at me on and off till i actually got out of bed at 7am. she was being a little monster. i tried to settle her in her bed, in mine, tried giving her a drink. i was so close to hitting her hard, it scared me.

so this morning i called my parents, took the 2 youngest round there and went to bed whilst my parents looked after the girls. feel better now.

sleep depravation is nasty, it really does make u more vunrable, and easier to lose it.

dont feel bad babe, we have all been there, and with all the extra stress and worry you are carrying at the moment it is not suprising. The main thing is, you didnt. You stayed calm and did the right thing. I hope you feel better after a little more sleep and fingers crossed for a peaceful night tonight x

It's a form of torture for a reason, Misdee. And the important word there is "almost". You didn't.

You're under so much stress at the moment - be kind to yourself xxxxxxxxxxxxx

was the same the other day dd2 woke up at 1am and didn't go back to sleep till 5am, I had 2 1/2 hours sleep, I was knackered and in the end I shouted at her to go to sleep

Oh misdee don't feel bad. We've all had those moments. There are times when I know that if I don't leave the room, I will actually hit this child as hard as I can, and as I don't want to do that, I run screaming from the room (occasionally being followed by screaming child!)

I have actually locked myself out in the garden so that I didn't have to be in the same space as my DD once. She was screaming inside and I really had to take time out to remind myself that I was the adult, I was in control... but I swear, it took at least six minutes!

So you're normal!

i know this may sound bad but is there anyone who can have the kids for a night so you can try and get some sleep otherwise you will end up making yourself ill. could you not talk to your parents about how you feel? you may think it makes you feel like a bad parent and that you can't handle your kids but your just like any other parent whether they show it or not..... everyone needs sleep.

i slept during the day, and i have a baby who is breastfed still. dd2 sleep patterns get worse when dh is in hospital. usually she just crawls into my bed, then dd1 joins us and i end up on the edge

i love them to bits, they are my angels, but this last fortnight i have been doing too much, so am going to see dh tomorrow and thats it. no housework, no cooking (a day of takeaways and ready meals wont hurt), and an early night.

I know how you feel, I have felt like that before now, I also have a breasfed baby and in the recent hot weather she has been feeding more often so I have felt extra tired
As someone else said the important word is ALMOST, don't be hard on yoursefl, remeber they use sleep deprivation as a form of torture in some countries and we all know why IT IS HELL

Big hugs for you