OK, thats good cvq - im knackered but i didnt feel i could go to bed til i knew you were ok. Things are going to get better you know, just don't expect too much from yourself, you have been through so much, it is OK to have a bad day. Tomorrow is a new day, hopefully the weather will improve (some hope!) and you can get out of the house. Even if it is just to go sniping for windchimes.