I am struggling! I have been single manning the parenting for 14 years now my kids are 19 and 16, eldest global developmental delay and youngest dropped out of education and severe anxiety and no clue what she's doing to move forward. I have worked since she was 5 been full time for about 4 years and worked through covid, I am so burnt out and have used up all my spare time trying to improve myself with driving, working on being invaluable at work ironically to make my kids lives better, that I've completely neglected them every step of the way. My world revolved around making their life better to the point ive actually made it worse for them by not being there for them because i was at bloody work all the time, they have both left with very little education or qualifications, neither of them are engaging with work or further education ive got one who is so chilled back he's just meh about everything, he won't actively do anything he has to be told what to do, and the other one who gets so overwhelmed it's too stressful to even have a conversation about the future or writing a c.v or applying for jobs its so hard!!!!!! Did I mention I fucking work full time now!!!!!! Don't be a parent and work honestly worst thing I ever did. And they always guilted me at my old job for putting my kids first imagine that!!!!!! I wish I could go back and bloody shake myself. Anyway what's done is done I'm now in a situation so here's what's in place so far - eldest starts a self funded mentoring weekly session to help him figure out coding and such and hopefully help him move into his dream career. Youngest nightmare loves to live a lifestyle of "I think I have money but actually I dont" which I'm severely worried about but I cannot fund her lifestyle now that I don't have any money coming in for her and her dad will certainly enjoy 2 years early release from paying for her, but our area offers no apprenticeship placements, she will struggle to get anywhere without more than the 2 GCSEs she managed to get a grade 4 and 5 on, and there's no job opportunities at the moment not even seasonal work for her, and to be honest the last 2-3 years of school it was HELL trying to get her in. I'm just so worried about her honestly and even more worried because I'm taking care of everyone and what happens if/when I'm not here anymore? It's so stressful I'm the type who likes to sort things out not bury my head in the sand but im at such a loss with these 2 honestly. Anyway vent over I just want to hear hopefully from someone who's been there done that and hey their kids turned out fine? They will turn out fine right? My poor boy is so isolated my girl is very sociable bit volatile 🙈