Honestly just looking to rant where no-one knows me and doesn't expect me to act grateful because "at least he has her" (my dad buggered off when I was a toddler, never to be seen again).
But I fucking hate it. I hate that he just gets to "log-off" parenting and can forget she exists for days on end. I hate that he doesn't even think to contact her when he doesn't see her for a week. I hate that he gets to arrange all his days around his life and never has to ask for a certain day off from being a dad. I hate that has never ever had her even one day more than he's obligated to. I hate that his work isn't affected. I hate that when he's ill he just gets to be ill, rather than ill and a parent still. I hate how much she adores the bones of him despite the absolute lack of fucking effort he ever puts in. I hate how little he does with her. I hate that other than food, he spends zero money on her. I hate that I'm responsible for every little bit of life admin or organisation that she needs. I hate that despite never paying for any of her clothes or belongings, he's still incapable of ever giving me them back without weeks of nagging. I hate that the minute I have anything to say, everything is made out to be my fault. I hate that I have to share birthdays and Christmas with someone who doesn't care. And I hate how much it is going to eat away at me forever because I truly do not understand how someone can care so little about our girl who is so incredible and deserves so much better.