20 - didnt find out about the pregnancy til 3 weeks before his due date - zero time to prepare and had to postpone Uni. Caught completely offguard and I was on the pill which was taken ontime religiously.
No sickness, no nausea, no peeing alot, no pregnancy belly - only signs which i did not know was associated with pregnancy at the time was the linea nigra line that appeared so neatly and was right inbetween the groves in my toned abs and it was barely visible to me and my natural Size E boobs went up 2 cups!! - Midwife noticed the linea nigra straight away but was baffled and asked where my belly was because I was so dainty and super ripped from playing different sports all through my school/college life and was my hobby.
I almost fell off the assessment table when she did the scan, I saw my son curled up, limbs, fingers and toes could be seen as well as his boy bits! He was fully formed and looked happy but i had no tummy!! It blew my mind
A lot of panic tests were done because i had not had any pre natal checks or tests and my midwife told me the possibility of a downs syndrome baby because my tummy muscles had restricted growth of the placenta and all sorts..
She asked if i was willing to still have the baby after the birth if he had downes and told me to consider my Uni and my life and asked if i wanted social care to intervene if this was the case and tons more kinds of questions im not sure she should have asked but it frightened and upset me and I snapped at her
"Downes or not this is my baby and I am very insulted by these suggestions of giving him away just because you assume he might have something I was never tested for.
First DS was born 2 weeks early, day after my Grandad 🥰 without Downes syndrome and I truly believe he was only early due to the awful fear the midwife put in me with alllllll of her information of Downes and trying to get me to think about my life without a baby as opposed to life with a baby she thought had Downes etc
Life would have been awful knowing i mothered a child and gave it up without a reasonable reason. Midwife made it seem normal but to me at 20 yo, it felt wrong and I was glad I followed my instincts to love and keep my DS no matter what he came out looking like
He was so small and perfect and such a calm baba - only made a suck sound when he was hungry, he didnt cry like most babies and this made everything so easy, he fit into my life like he was always there and we've been besties ever since