Hi
I was hoping someone had some advice/wisdom for me.
I have a wonderful two year old. It's been great, my heart is so full. However, it's been hard. I have found being a parent very hard mostly because I have grieved my independence.
My partner is great, very hands on and supportive. I'm a doctor and I work full time and so does he so life is quite busy for both of us!
I would love to have more children but I feel like I just can't cope? My toddler has been the best thing ever to happen to me, the love/cute moments fill me with joy more than anything else . That being said I still hate to do any outing alone with him, I find it stressful and just prefer to stay at home. We don't eat out etc. My little boy is quite heavy and I'm a small build...I still have to carry him at times and I find it exhausting even carrying him from the car to the door. I really rely on my partner and the thoughts of a day trip alone with a toddler stress me out. I don't see any of my friends who are mums feel like this. In fact they handle the kids alone just fine.
I even coordinate shopping for groceries with childcare because he gives me anxiety if I'm with him at the supermarket.
Is this normal? Does the above mean that the second will really tip me over the edge?
I'm scared I will really regret not having another but I'm worried having another will be a nightmare too.
Advice please maybe from someone who can relate?
Thank you in advance.