AIBU - My DH is not overly affectionate in general, hes always been like this 20 year relationship, low sex drive, hates being touched/cuddling etc. We genuinely think he may be slightly on spectrum as he has issues socialising, slight sensory problems etc. Deep communication is a real issue. On surface we laugh every day, have loads of family time, care about each other, have two children, he helps around the house most of the time.
However I feel I need more, currently on holiday in spain and I booked the kids into kids club, they always say they dont want to go (shy) but always have a great time, its just a couple of hours for me and DH to chill and spend time together. However today he said he feels tight and doesnt want them to go ... to me its really upset me as iv voiced all week that a few hours together here and there would make me happy, am I being selfish to expect him to put me first for once? I know family holidays with kids are so child focused but im not getting anything I need from this relationship, it feels the same at home he never organises for us to spend time together or suggests date nights etc.
Think I just needed to vent today 😪