Hello. I (60F) am not sure how to start so I'll just get it out. I have two kids, a boy (35) and a girl (33), I was married to their father for 25 years. I had an affair when my son was 23 and my daughter 21. I divorced their father and remarried. My last contact with my son was 12 years ago when he found out. I sent an E-mail explaining what had happened, as he wouldn't answer his phone. My last contact I ever recieved from him was being called a "w-e".
I've tried to contact him several times over the years, and have conveyed messages to him through his sister. Which, she said, he basically pretends he hasn't heard - zero response or acknowledgement. Apparently, he told his partner that I had committed s-e when he was 23 which shocked me.
Is there anything I can do? I'm getting old, and the idea of never seeing or speaking to my boy again tears me apart. I can't contact him directly as he changed his E-mail, phone number, and I don't know his address. Thanks.