Just as the title says really.
My 4 year old daughter has recently started talking about my ex - husband's (still in the process of divorcing) partner more. It feels like I am winded everytime she mentions the partner's name, and of course I have a big smile on my face and act interested in whatever it is she is saying about the partner.
I just can't seem to shake the feeling of grief, and jealousy, that another lady gets to enjoy special moments with my child - I feel so sad that it was never supposed to be like this and is never a part of the plan when you try for a baby.
We alternate Christmas Eve, and I am already thinking ahead to this Christmas as I am very much aware that this lady will likely be waking up with my daughter on Christmas morning and it makes me feel so overwhelmed and sad.
I know I should be happy that my daughter seems to like this lady, but I am just not quite there yet.
Any advice for anyone who had dealt with feelings around this?
Thank you