So I had my baby boy 5 weeks ago by planned c section due to health problems. I had to be put to sleep so j fpund it all rather distressing.
My milk took 5 days to come in and in the mean time baby just would not latch on. I was so determined to give him breast milk so refused to give him formula in a bottle. I cup fed him bits of formula between feeds so he was getting something at least. After a week of constant crying, from both myself and baby, we decided to give him formula in a bottle and pump breast milk so he could have that in a bottle and mix feed so to speak. I never produced that much milk from day one but it's taking 2 days now to get enough milk for just one feed. It's so time consuming for such a small amount and I'm wondering is it worth it just to give him one feed over 2 days. But I just can't stop, I feel so guilty every time I think about it. Why do we put so much pressure on ourselves?? I feel like my body is failing me and I'm failing my baby by not being able to provide for him! Has anyone else had the same?? People keep saying that what you express isn't an indication of supply but what does that even mean? If I have a bigger supply then why isnt it coming off when I pump?!