Hi. I have a 5 y.o. boy and my second pregnancy ended in tragedy 2 years ago. Now i am 39 and my husband wants a second child. He always wanted, but after the death of our second child it just wasnt happening and then i lost my job. I found a new one which i enjoy so much. I am less than a year here, but due to my age we need to start trying now. I dont know how will i manage 2 kids, new job, house, pregnancy ( any pregnancy now will be high risk am told). I just have so many fears!