I have 2 boys 10 & 8 and a 7 year old step daughter. I always wanted a girl really yearned for one. I always wanted another child when my youngest was 5 but despite our efforts it didn't happen for me and my husband. I have endometriosis which could be the problem though we haven't looked into intervention.
Im now at a cross roads i'm broody but i know i cannot guarentee a girl. I know deep down i will need insemination and dont know weatheri want to go through that but the feelings are still there years later.
Also recently i find myself looking at baby and younger memories of my kids and it hurts like really breaks heart that they are now so big and I've been having some serious anxiety over it. To the point of sleep issues.
I never wanted to get to the point where on was going to high school when i was going to start again. Would it be a huge mistake starting again and having such a gap or would i always regret and wonder what if. My husband is also desperate for another child of our own.. The boys are from previous and his daughter is from previous though our children have all been together since been toddlers and we are married.
Also another thing to conciser how 'dysfunctional' it could be.
I'm so torn but its all on my mind 24/7
Anyone been in a similar situation or felt the same / experience or advise can give.