I had a blow out with my 5 year old today and feel so guilty. He had my phone and my husband and I went to get him dressed for school and he refused to give up my phone. He tends to get tunnel vision and began to act up. He then went to elbow me when I went to get my phone back which is something he really does. Then he got up off the couch and threw a shoe at me which then led me to get up and follow him. He ran away from me into his bedroom and went to climb up his bunkbed. I grabbed for him to pull him down and he must have let go or I pulled harded than I think because he fell and bounced his head off the door jam and got a huge bump. I never hit my kids. Ever. He's usually a perfect child. I figuratively want to jump off a bridge right now. I have been crying all day.