DS1 is 4 (I have posted about him ad nauseam lately). Just now outside his nursery he whined about us not going to town today - I'd said no - so he sat down on the ground and pouted, and when I eventually lifted him up he went boneless and wouldn't take his weight (you know the move, they all do it!).
So I said at because of his behaviour we could not go to the playground as planned but would go straight home instead. I didn't lose mytemper or shout or anything, but I don't really like opportunistic punishments and I feel it was a bit of a cheap shot on my part. I've had a difficult few days and he was embarassing me in front of all the other parents.
I then had to nip into the Children's Centre office (next to the nursery) to pick up a form I needed. DS1 screamed and cried all the time we were in there and wouldn't get up AGAIN when I asked him to.
I then realised he hadn't got his bookbag and took him back to the nursery to get it (he'd stopped crying but was still sulking). I am an idiot, he doesn't need the sodding bookbag, I should have just gone home. Anyway when we got there his teacher and the headmaster were still there and looked concerned because he was obviously sad and had tears on his face . I said "He's upset because I said he can't go to the playground because he sat down on the ground and refused to move". They both looked a bit shocked. His teacher said "Oh dear" and the headmaster got down and put his arms around ds1 and said "You'll learn". DS1 was sobbing again and saying "I don't like our house, it's a horrible house" as we left.
I feel like such a dickhead, why did I take him back in there? They must think I am off my trolley.