just have to keep going and gazing at ds, [grin](7 months) and have several times lifted him from his cot (sleeping soundly fortunately)[grin]!!!!! just to cuddle him because I absolutely, totally COULDN'T [blush]. Sorry have posted about this once already [blush], but just can't believe how much i have bonded with ds in the last few days. After months of just wishing he would be asleep so I could have a break [sad], I keep wishing he was awake so I can cuddle him [grin]. He is SO delicious!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I was SO worried that I would never feel like this, and now I wonder how on earth I never did? [grin] [grin] [grin] [grin] [grin] [grin] [grin] [grin] [grin]