I really want to enjoy the school holidays, but what really happens is as each day goes by it's harder and harder for me to paint on a smile.
Ds1, 5.10, can be lovely, reasonable, blah blah, but he can also be such a bloody wind up. Ds2 reaction to being wound up is to scream, which then makes me scream at ds1 for making ds2 scream because I just can't bear the screaming, and it's ds1 causing it! If he's bored, why can't he just find something to do instead of annoying ds2?
Also, ds1 never wants to accept no for an answer, and his new recent thing is to go on about how I say not to everything, nothing is fair etc. And he can go on and on an on with the argument til I get to the point of losing it with him. It's taken all i've got this week not to smack him. I just want to enjoy my time with them and not constantly feel guilty for being unable to be a nice mummy for them, but how can I be a nice mummy when they are so awful half the time?
Ds1 is pretty good whilst we are out, problems are mainly when we are at home, and ds2 being 3.6 can be very unpredictable, lots of unreasonable demands and screaming tantrums.
Any advice, or maybe just reassurance that others are having a crap time?